28 I AM A STRONG WOMAN (1/2)
** Ooooh-oh, ooooh-woh, Ooooh-oh, ooooh-woh
You say you love me, I say you crazy
We're nothing more than friends
You're not my lover, more like a brother
I known you since we were like ten, yeah**
”Oh you shut up!” I turned off my phone alarm. ”Ugh, monday again!”
I dragged my body to the shower. Hate Mondays.
I should file for a leave these days. I'm mentally, physically, emotionally and spiritually drained. I wished for days like yesterday to happen to my life frequently. But for now, got to work, or I'll starve to death. Poor me. I'm
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Today is quiz day for the kids. Parents insisted on having quizzes to see if their children have learned anything. But I'm against this since I believe that children around this age should just be learning while playing, no pressure on studying. So, I made their quizzes super easy. Haha
Ash and I sat at the back. No point on checking if they're cheating, they have different test papers haha.
I poked Ash.
”What?”
”You! Why didn't you tell me you have a girlfriend? I was always fantasizing of a romance at work, that we'd fall in love and be mommy and daddy to the kids! I am so blind!”
Ash was laughing so hard I believe he'll have a stomachache later.
”Really Cass? So I was right. You were really flirting with me!”
”Shut up!” I was laughing hard too. We just stopped laughing when Bianca glared at us.
”Oops. So Ash, are you not going to tell me? How long have you been in a relationship?”
”Two years. And I didn't tell you because I wanted to surprise you. But I didn't know you're having wet dreams for me.”
”No I did not!”
”Haha. Okay okay Cass chill. Really, Gina asked me to keep our relationship a secret until she graduates so that's that. But I didn't know about you Cass. I thought you have a boyfriend.”
”Heh. I wish.”
”But you were in a relationship before right?”
”Of course I had! What do you think of me?”
”Alright. So who was it?”
I bit my lips. Should I tell Ash about my past? I'm scared.
”Okay Cass sorry. But, is he the one causing you sadness for the past few days?”
”Eh, sort of.”
”You haven't moved on?”
”I don't know. Maybe, I still haven't.”
Do you still love him?”
I looked down. ”Ash, how do you know if a guy still loves you?”
”Me? I'm not into that.”
”Haha funny Ash. But as a man, how do you show you still love your ex?”
”Well, if I still love my ex, I have to never stop talking to her, reminding her constantly that I exist, that I love him. And I have to prove to her that I will never do wrong again for whatever reason the breakup maybe.” He paused and gazed at me for a little while. ”Why? Is your ex still talking to you?”
”Yeah. We decided to remain as friends when we broke up. But, I don't know anymore. He talks to me more than his current girlfriend. But I don't want to stop talking to him. Ash, what should I do?”
Ash frowned. ”Why do you like talking to him?”
”I think I just grew comfortable talking to him. Because I can always speak my mind, no censor and all. And I think he understands me more, so he could give me insights on what to do.”
”And does he feel the same way too?”
”I think so.”
”I believe his girlfriend is a bit too clingy.”
”How do you know that?”
”Because you aren't. And don't ask me anymore because I just know. I'm a genius that way.”
I rolled my eyes. ”So, what now Ash?”
”Hmm, have you tried asking him about your status?”
”I did. But he won't give me a straight answer.”