128 Heal Me I Need You 1 (2/2)

She got pierced from her mother's words, how could she act as nothing was wrong with this situation? Out of the blue, she came after she had been away for twenty years. and made Kezia's heart collapsed. Kezia held her tears as she cleaved her palms hurt.

Adjusting herself, she took a quick breath and told her with frozen words, ”Don't call yourself my mother. Why are you here? Why do you come after all this time I asked you to meet me in the past years? But you never did! Why did you never explain to me what happen between you and father?! Why did you leave me in the past?! Why you-”

Her mother reached her side and hugged her tightly. Shocked was shown on Kezia's eyes. Silence arrived between the two for a moment, while the sound of ticking clocks resounded along with their heartbeat which was thumping nonstop.

Kezia felt something wetness on her shoulder. She heard her mother sobs, crying pitifully while calling Kezia's name. She brushed Kezia's neck and hair. She muttered, ”I'm sorry...I'm sorry for leaving you.” She kept repeating the words until Kezia couldn't contain her rain.

Kezia didn't wail like she used to do. She just let her tears fell silently. Standing there while her mother kept hugging her. She felt the warmth she missed so much. Her mother suddenly told her, ”I want to say goodbye.”

”What?” She asked her confusingly. Her mother let go of her arms on Kezia's shoulder. She looked at Kezia's face which became mature. There was no eight years old girl she used to play. There was no eight years old girl she used to tell a bedtime story.

Snorting, she wiped her tears slightly and explained, ”Just like I said. I want to say goodbye. Kezia, my purpose to meet you now, so I can see you for the last time, I'm not living in Japan anymore, that's why I need to leave. But before that, can you hear my story? It is the story which I always hide from you.”

Kezia didn't utter words and stared at her fixedly. She saw her mother movement and noticed a silver ring on her ring finger. Her mother took out a paper and gave it to Kezia. Kezia looked at the document title which was written 'DNA Test'.

She heard her mother saying with sad tone regrettably, ”I've been waiting until you grow up and it's also my fault who keeps delaying to explain this to you, I have a reason, but I can't tell you. Kezia what happened between your father and I. It was something I need to apologize. We separated wasn't because he didn't care about me, it just me whose heart never been with him. Your father hates you is all because of me, and you probably know about it. It was a mistake Kezia, it was a mistake to marry your father when you are in my womb at that time.”

Her mother held her own hands to cover her face, sobbing as she mumbled, ”I'm sorry...” Once again.

Taking a step back, staggeringly, Kezia crumpled the paper and asked her with a shaky voice, ”What are you trying to say?”

Her mother tearfully choked from her own words. She noticed Kezia expression turned darkened and eyes moisten. She smiled helplessly at her daughter, ”It is just like you guess it. Ranbo Ginga is not your real father. Before I married Ranbo Ginga, I was dating my old boyfriend. We broke up when my parents against our married due to his low status. He's my bodyguard you see. He got fired and I never see him again not until before my marriage to Ranbo Ginga.”

”I met my ex again and I realized I couldn't forget about him. We made love, but I didn't realize he was actually sick, so once again he left me. At that time, I didn't know about his illness. I resented him for leaving me, for making me hurt, for making me wait and didn't take me to run away with him.”

”Five years later, He died from cancer. I received his last letter which he sent a month before he passed away. He said he was 'sorry'. He didn't want to tell me because he was afraid I will leave my family to go with him and he guessed it right indeed.”

”If I could turn back in time, I would make that choice. Unfortunately, I can't. So, I...I was depressed at that time. I couldn't focus on my current family. I couldn't focus on myself. When I raised you and lied to Ranbo that you are his daughter, did you know how he felt? Overjoy. Ranbo's a good husband and a good father, yet I didn't love him. I felt guilty.” Her tears fell from her cheeks and touched her trembling lips.

Her mother continued, ”One day, I brave myself to tell Ranbo about you and how I really feel about him. He was disappointed, of course, furious as well. Our relationship broke to severe. He started to treat me differently for three years straight. He would keep his distance but sometimes pretending to act nice. He still tried to be a good husband, but deep inside I knew he was suffering and couldn't accept the fact that my heart was not with him.”

”At that time, he had the intention to divorce me, from seeing me suffering whenever I was with him. But because of his family regulation. He couldn't do it until he became the heir of Ginga Corp. In the end, I realized his love is not the love I expected to be. I made our relationship worsen.”

She bitterly smiled, her head facing down. She grieved, ”I should have not angry with him. It was just his way about his life and goals. I forgot how ambitious he was. In reality, I didn't really know what he thought about me. Did he ever love me or not? I didn't know. But, it's too late to regret it and I just want to forget about it. Because it's not important anymore.”

”It was at that time, I saw an opportunity to escape from Ginga household, I found out about his love affairs. I wasn't angry with him. He explained that it was just an accident with that woman called Lucy. I said to him, I don't care if it's an accident or not, he made that woman pregnant so he must marry her. I told him, I want a divorce. Of course, he disagreed, without any conclusion to come any sooner. I decided to leave without him knowing it, leaving a divorce paper and a short letter on the table. Yes, I left you, my beloved daughter, at that time, your face reminded me about my late boyfriend, I just didn't want to see it. That's one of the reasons I couldn't bring you.”

”It took me so long preparing to tell you this. I have never been a fearless person, but I met someone who encouraged me to face you now. Yes, it's my new husband, he's a widower. I found out he was a man I could trust and genuinely love me. I don't want to make the same mistake with Ranbo or my late boyfriend ever again. That's why I put my love for real this time to him.”

She brushed Kezia's smooth cheeks, ”So, I'm sorry my daughter. I love you. But this is goodbye. I'm sorry I can't be a good mother to you.”