Chapter 449 - Why Am I Like This, Don’t You Know (1/2)
Xian Zihao hugged her tightly, bent his head down, and kissed her hair, her brow. He then wiped the tears from her cheeks. ”I'm glad you're crying. I've been watching you hold your feelings for a month. I'm afraid you'll fall depressed, it's good you're crying. Ruolan, I'm here with you. I'll stay with you and no matter what happened, we'll face it together, I'll accompany you, okay?”
Jiang Ruolan sobbed and shook her head loudly, shouting, ”I want a divorce!”
”No way!” Xian Zihao rejected her straightforwardly and hugged her even tighter.
”I want a divorce!” Jiang Ruolan insisted on her decision and pushed him away with her hand, ”Xian Zihao, let me go! Don't force me! I beg you! I beg you to let me go! Divorce me! I beg you!”
He held her tightly, unwavering. ”I won't let go!”
”Let go! Let go of me!”
Seeing that she was fighting too hard, Xian Zihao loosened his grip. He didn't want to hurt her.
As Jiang Ruolan fought with all her might, Xian Zihao looked at her seriously and said harshly, ”Jiang Ruolan, if I let you go now, I will be the most scumbag person in this world! Now that you are behaving like this, not only will I not let you go, From now on, you can't leave Greenville Residence even half a step! I'm worried about your condition!”
”I'm fine! I just want to leave! Let go of me! I can't stand it anymore! Every day, I dream about my mother's death! Zihao, I know you love me. If you love me, then let me go! Don't let me suffer like this, I beg you.” Jiang Ruolan cried as she slowly lowered her body and knees. She wanted to kneel to Xian Zihao. ”I beg you!”
Seeing that she was about to kneel, Xian Zihao's eyes reddened as he pulled her up forcefully. ”What are you doing? You're crazy!”
”Yes! I'm crazy! Every time I sleep, all the memories of my mother committing suicide playing in my mind until I get a nightmare! You too can go crazy if you watch your mom commit suicide terribly!” Jiang Ruolan's eyes reddened as she shouted at him. ”Xian Zihao, what Cui Liuxian said before was right. Why must you keep a woman like me, who has a deep grudge against your Xian Family, by your side? Are you happy to see me suffer?”
”Why?” Xian Zihao's gaze locked onto her, his hands firmly gripped her shoulders as he made her look at him. ”Why am I like this, don't you know?”
Jiang Ruolan shook her head loudly and covered her ears with her hands. ”I don't know! I don't know anything! I just know that I'm really going crazy! This is the hardest choice I've ever made in my life, but I can't help it! Xian Zihao, no matter how much I love you, my mother won't come back! My mother ... she won't be able to come back! She won't be able to come back!”
Seeing that the more she talked, the more agitated she became, Xian Zihao held her struggling body down and said softly, ”Calm down first, we'll think of another way. There must be a way! There will be a way to achieve the best of both worlds, and I don't want you to suffer every day. Ruolan, you're hurting me too, so give me time, okay?”
”How can I give you time! You already know everything. The reason you hid it from me is that you want to think of a way to help me before I find out, right? But after so long, have you thought about it?” Jiang Ruolan no longer struggled and calmed down. She raised her head and looked at Xian Zihao's eyes coldly. There was not the only concern for her but also seriousness in his eyes. He cares more about this than she did!
Xian Zihao's grip tightened on her shoulder.
Jiang Ruolan sneered, ”The dead can't be resurrected, what idea can you think of? Can you give me a living mother? Can you, Xian Zihao, turn back time and give me the love I should have received when I was little? Honestly, I never dared to hope for anything that was not there! But why should you torture me like this?”