273 Silence of Fireworks (1/2)
[Luna's Perspective]
Among the countless unfamiliar faces that zoomed by in a blur, my eyes only focused on his determined figure as we walked through the crowd, fighting against the flow ever so slightly as we made our way to an offshoot path. This is a path that will lead to a spot that Zevin had discovered yesterday where there will be serenity for us to talk in private.
We had intentionally lose ourselves from the group, using the river of humans as cover to traverse to this path and continue down on it. As for the reason why, we wanted some time to ourselves, some privacy and protection from any potential privy eyes and ears. This...is something between Zevin and I, and it must be a decision that we make with unfiltered emotions and with the utmost purity.
The path soon darkened as we made our way further and further from the pier and entered further and further into the side path leading through a light woods. Our final destination is a secluded beach that should be free from the presence of other people, the perfect place for us right now.
With the celestial light of the moon illuminating our path and Zevin guiding me by walking in front, I looked off to the side in search of the chirping crickets in the bushes. However, in this darkness, there is not much for me to see. But...the occasional clearing broke way to a small creak to my left, and hovering over this small creak, illuminating in a dull faint azure and golden light, were fireflies that roamed about, promoting a sensual scene that Zevin and I intentionally slowed our pace to observe.
Our walk continued on as we were yet at our destination yet until we finally arrived. The trees and brushes before us cleared into a small white sand beach approximately twenty meters in length. The ocean glistened as it reflected the rays of celestial light and gentle waves washed up onto the white sand beach, kissing it before it slowly was lulled back into the ocean.
”There's no one around here,” Zevin softly whispered as he turned around to me.
The two of us were standing in the center of this beach and on the white sand. I felt the gentle ocean breeze blew by, moving my hair and making it so that I need to bring up a hand to the side of my head to keep my hair from blowing into my eyes.
”So...” Zevin continued as he looked at me with a rather calm and somewhat...sad countenance. ”That's Alevian, huh? I can see why...”
I stared at him with an expressionless face while my heart palpitated in my chest. Upon his mention of Alevian's name, my mind uncontrollably wandered to memories of him. These were...sweet memories that are rather long-lasting.
”I...I really can't say anything,” Zevin sighed as he chuckled in a self-deprecating manner. ”I really don't know what to say...”
”I'm sorry,” I lowered my head and apologized.
”No,” Zevin shook his head gently. ”It's not your fault... You can't lie to yourself about certain things.”
”When did you know?” I frowned as I gazed into his eyes. I could feel an overwhelming amount of guilt flood through me, pulsing as it coarse through my very veins and spread throughout and permeate my body.
”It's not that hard,” he chuckled and said. ”We've been together for a while now, so I know when you're trying to conceal something.”
”I...” I lowered my head and looked down at the sandy beach underneath.
I could feel tears streaming to my eyes, but I held them back. I...I cannot cry right now. I am the one that is causing Zevin pain, so I cannot cry and pretend to be the victim. I...I am the victimizer and Zevin is the victim. I have no right to be...to be crying and pretending as if I did nothing wrong. I can't...
”So this is it, huh?” Zevin shook his head and sighed. There was a slight trembling in his voice as he said with an obvious weeping tone that he is desperately trying to hold back.