117 Ism not her Boyfriend (2/2)

”How does this one look?” Mura asked as she held up a dress to her body. On her face was an anticipating smile, and next to her, the store employee that was helping her also had a patient smile on her face as she waited for my response.

”It's alright,” I answered after taking a quick glance.

”Your boyfriend is pretty shy,” the store employee jokingly commented.

”I'm not her boyfriend,” I responded and sighed as I corrected the misconception.

”There might be a possibility for that though,” Mura winked at me as she smiled in a joking manner.

”I'm not her brother as well,” I added.

”You never know,” Mura chuckled as she returned the dress back to the rack. ”You have the chance to end up being my brother-in-law.”

”You really think so?” I sighed.

”About what?” she asked without looking over towards me. ”Boyfriend or brother-in-law?”

”Well,” I lowered my head in boredom. ”I guess both are equally impossible.”

”Now why would you think that?”

”First,” I said, looking up at her. ”You're my teacher. Second... your sister, well... I don't think we can ever develop into that relationship.”

”Well you never know,” she smiled playfully as she turned her head to look at me. ”Both have an equally good chance of happening.”

”That's a pretty lame joke,” I chuckled.

What she's jokingly suggesting really has a near zero chance of occurring in my opinion. It's just basically impossible. Therefore, any suggestion of such will only remain a joke and only a joke. There's no chance of it ever becoming a reality. Me dating her or me dating her sister both is... simply a fantasy that will never become a reality.

I felt my gaze soften as I thought about what she jokingly suggested. It's not like I would be against being in a relationship with either of the two since if anyone were to be able to date either one of the two sisters, then that person would be extremely lucky. Everybody would want to date Mura or Muria. If given the chance, maybe I would too. However, it's more of a problem with me than with them.

The reason why our chances are basically zero is because, first, they don't deserve to have their lives ruined by me. Second, I don't deserve a happy ending. I am a scum, the evidence for which I would prefer to not talk about yet. However... someone like me, someone as horrible as me, I do not deserve a happy ending. Rather, a tragic ending works better for me. It suits my style and everything. Therefore, I believe I will die alone, never ever actually being in a real relationship. Once I accomplish my purpose in life, let me rot. Let me fall into the abyss and live in the darkness of the city as I destroy myself and allow my life to decompose in the darkness of the city. I am a scum, and I deserve a tragedy.

With an accepting smile, I continued to follow Mura through the mall as she shopped for clothes. Boredom accompanied me for the rest of the shopping journey, but... I was forced to volunteer for such a position so I must finish it.