36 Driving in the Rain (2/2)
”So...has something been bothering you lately?” she glanced over at me with a piercing look that almost felt as if she was looking right at my heart.
”N-nothing,” I stuttered as I glanced away out of nervousness.
How can I tell her that I changed your memory and that I had actually almost had sex with her? That...she'll probably think I have a mental illness or something.
”If you don't want to tell me you don't have to,” she said as the light turned green and the vehicle started moving once again. ”But I want you to know that if anything is bothering you, I will always be on your side to help you.”
”...” I looked over and observed the side view of her face.
”Even if you've done something wrong,” she continued to say. ”Know that I will always forgive you in the end.”
I stared at her in silence. To be honest, I really wanted to cry at that moment. My eyes watered up as I realized that the sole purpose she had suggested that we go out for lunch was so that she can create a situation where we were isolated in close proximity to each other and she could talk to me. This dedication, this care that she provided me...it only served to multiply the guilt. Her emotions of pure...care and love for me, yet I've...yet I've almost tainted her body while she was without conscious.
I suppressed my urge to tear up and looked away at the outside world through the window in fear that she might see the slight redness or the wateriness of my eyes. I then glanced down at the illuminated screen on my phone, eyeing the Socialization app. It was all because of this stupid app that my life has become like this...If it weren't for Ralus...things wouldn't have gone like this.
I let out a gentle sigh as I finally cave in to the fact that this will be a prison with no escape for me. I literally know the truth behind the world that I reside in and have even met God himself. However, I do not feel as if it is a blessing. Rather, it was more of a curse, with God's negligence and the morally wrong commands of the angel Ralus. God did try to correct it by assigning Emilia to be the one responsible for assigning missions to me. However, he did also send her out to monitor me. Although Emilia has given me more freedom and privacy than I had initially imagined it to be, I still do not fully understand why she was sent here. What was God afraid of from me that would prompt him to send an angel to constantly monitor me?
I looked out the window and realized that we were now driving on the highway that was also elevated from street level. From here, I could see the tall skyscrapers in the not too far distance as we drove on the highway along the Helliger River. The rain had made the distant view somewhat blurry as the rain clouds seemed to conceal the top of the skyscrapers in the mist. However, that just made the city view even more pleasant to the eyes as everything seemed to merge perfectly.
As I looked down at my phone once again, I realized that there was a notification once again.
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Current Objective
Stay the night with Loriana in a lover's hotel.
Time Limit: 10 hours
Reward: 4500 SP
Hello, do you miss me?
~Ralus
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