6 Dinner date 2 (2/2)
”That would be great.” I answered. We stand up. Shawn quickly stood beside me and helped me wear my sweater. 'Still the gentleman I see.' I thought to myself.
”Thank you.” I give him a smile.
We walked outside. The shore was not far. I took of my sandals and held them but Shawn took them away.
”Let me.” Shawn said with a smile. 'Always the gentleman.' I say to myself. My heart started to beat fast.
”This is a great spot.” I started a conversation to break my reverie.
”Yes. Actually I was planning on constructing a villa where the restaurant stands now.” Shawn said while looking at the bungalow building.
”Was it for your dead fiancee?” I asked slowly waiting for him to open up.
He paused for I bit then sighed. ”Yes. She gave me the idea actually. Once we passed this way she saw an abandoned house where the restaurant is standing right now. She said that if the house was renovated it could be a beautiful place to live in. She loved the sea, she said the sound of the waves calms her. The villa would be my gift to her after we're married. But it didn't turned out that way.” he said with a sad face.
My heart softens. So he really remembered that time. The future full of hope and happiness the should be was shattered in one night. I clenched my fist the time I remembered.
”Does she really look like me?” I asked acting curiously.
”Well there are some differences but the resemblance is huge.” Shawn answered looking at me.
”If it is okay to ask, how did she die?” I asked.
He looked at me. Dark blue eyes to sky blue. It was like he was entering my soul itself. Prying something hidden within me, hypnotizing me in the process.
I snapped back to reality. ”If you don't want to talk about it then it's okay. I didn't mean to be rude.” I said averting my gaze from him.
”She killed herself.” Shawn said finally.
That surprised me. I wasn't expecting him to say that straight forwardly.
”It was my fault. I let my anger get the better of me. When I came to my senses it was too late.” Shawn said. Sadness was evident in his voice. ”If I can only turn back time, I would not have lashed out on her. I would have heard her first and forgave her. I was a fool and now I'm paying the price.”
I can see him clenching his fist so hard. 'He is regretting it?' I asked myself. 'Is there a chance to get back what we have lost?'
I hold his clenched fists and looked at him. I gazed in his dark blue eyes, embracing the depths in them. ”Maybe she knows your pain. Maybe wherever she is right now she can see what your going thru and try to understand.” I say to him with a smile.
The words I have said, I don't know if it was just Queenie acting or Jillian really saying it from the depths of my heart.
”Thanks.” Shawn said with a smile.
***
We arrive at the driveway of the hotel I'm staying in.
”How long will you be staying in N city?” Shawn asked.
”I'm thinking of staying here for a while.” I said. ”I have Andrea find me a good house to live in.”
”I know a real estate agent that can help you.” Shawn said.
I looked at Shawn in wonder. ”Wow you really know many people here huh?” I said jokingly. ”You can run for a government office with so many connections.” I giggled.
Shawn laughed. ”Well uncle Julian is the current governor here in N city. He is the father of Jillian. He always pesters me to enter politics, saying that I am a natural born public servant.” Hearing my father's name gave an ached in my heart.
”Oh then have you thought of it?” I asked.
”Not really. My hands are full now with Andrew Holdings so entering politics is still at the back of my mind. Maybe if it was back then. ” he said. 'Back then if he married Jill he was thinking of helping his father-in-law to be and enter politics.' Shawn thought to himself.
No wonder Julia is a prospect wife for Shawn. My father has eyed Shawn for a long while now. He can see potential in him. That's why he was so happy that I was engaged to him. He knows after making him a son-in-law can broaden the chances of him entering politics and also the seat of power will still be under his grasp.
The car stopped at the front door. ”Well then let's call it a night. Thanks by the way. I had a great time.” I said.
”Let's do this again. If it's okay with you?” he asked me.
”Sure.” I smiled sweetly.
”Then can I get your phone number.” Shawn asked shyly.
”Of course. We're friends now, right?” I said to him.
”Yes, friends.” he said slowly like he was hugging the words and savoring it.
We exchanged phone numbers. I exited his car and closed the door. I wave goodbye at him and he waved back. He accelerated through the road.
I looked at his car until it was gone. I have learned many things today. I know that Shawn regretted what happened and he has been blaming him self for this past 8 years. No wonder he is still single. I remember what Mark said ”most sought of by women” meaning he is the most eligible bachelor here in N city.
My feeling is starting to sway. I have known since then that Shawn has never been a bad person. But he has hurt me. A wound that was cut deep in my heart. I also know that he was just used to make a huge blow right at me. The mother daughter pair, Victoria and Julia. They were the ones who had planned this from the start. They are the ones my revenge is aimed at. For now I will focus on using Shawn for my revenge. Maybe he is regretting and guilty of what happened in the past. But now is not the time to think of him. I need to focus on one thing. And that is to take back what's rightfully mine and get my revenge.