118 Stuck Inside (2/2)

I longed to hear the words the voice tried to say but the voice could only use muffled sounds. If I could, I would listen to the sounds all day and sit as the scenery changed to whatever the tone of the voice took on.If it sounded sad, my world changed to a rainy, busy, city street. People would walk by as I sat in a corner, rain water would run down my face. No one wants to look or speak to me, I'm lonely and I don't like the voice feeling this way either but there were people, there was something different and I could touch someone if I wanted to.

When the voice is happy, I am sitting inside a cozy wooden house. A fire is roaring, hot chocolate is on the table, a cozy blanket is on the sofa. I look outside and see that it's a winter wonderland but my heart aches, I want to hold onto something, feel someone's warmth despite how cozy the place is but I feel too comfortable to complain.

When the voice is angry, I find myself roaming through some dark woods. I can't help but feel it's all my fault. I want out, I need to get out but I'm lost... I don't what to do, it affects my heart, my temperament and I am determined to get out. I have tried running but can never keep my footing so I fall. The angry voice doesn't stay long and soon it turns sad. Even though my heart is tormented daily, I miss the voice when it's not talking.

Silence brings the summer, silence brings peace, silence is.... unsettling. There is also one more thing that happens and I'm not sure what causes it but it's a strange phenomenon.

Though there is no voice, there are times that my blue sky turns dark. My hand feels hot, sometimes my chest, there was even a time it was my cheek and I'm standing before a lake. Fireworks are shooting upwards and light up the sky. I love the scenery, I love the feeling, my heart doesn't ache and I am truly happy.

I could live forever watching the night sky but it's a fleeting moment.Then I feel worse off. Lately it has only been summer and I'm sick of it. I'm sick of not hear the voice, I want to meet the person who talks to me, I want to hear their words clearly and not muffled sounds anymore. I can't take it anymore and let my rage take over.

I sit up and start pounding the grass. My fists are hurting and I don't care, sweat is starting roll down my face as I grit my teeth.This is not enough! I stand up and look around, I bring my hand up to my hair and start to make it messy. I feel it fall forward and cover my face. A primal urge takes over as my blood boils. I look around savagely, nothing is around just an endless sea of green.

F*ck it! I start running, I pump my arms as I just run. I can't stop, I won't stop! I don't know how long I ran for but I noticed I was nearing something. I start to pick up the pace, my lungs are starting to hurt, my heart is feeling odd. There are odd voices starting to whisper into my ear. I swipe the sound away. I don't care! I don't care! I don't care!

I am reaching the edge! It's finally a different colour! A white brick wall! I need to reach it but suddenly my body feels like it's pulsing. It hurts too much but I want to move on! It pulses even more so I grab my chest. I clench at the white shirt I'm wearing and pull. I want to dig out my heart but my body pulses again. It feels like I'm on fire. Help!

”Edmond!”

Huh? everything calms down. The heat is gone, my heart is calm, and I blink, unsure of what happened. ”Edmond!” I heard it again, I feel a warmth from the bottom of my heart and my body becomes light. I stand up. I heard the voice, a female voice, I become hysterical! I can feel the greed from my bones, I want to see you!

I look around, a sea of grass behind me, a white wall infront. The choice is obvious, I need to escape this hell hole and see you! I ran to the wall, my steps are light and fast. I reached it in no time flat.

I grin as I look at the wall. ”Edmond?” That's it, my conviction is set! I raise my arms, clench my hands and one swift movement I bring down all the strength I have and hit the wall with my two fists. It shattered like glass the wall came raining down.

The pieces seemed to infect my world as everything starts to turn black. The sky is dark, the grass is black, the breeze is gone and trees started to sprout behind me. I look around and notice that the forest looks like the one I would wonder around, I look up and see a full moon, soft music is being played but hell I know what type of music it is. A lake was starting to form in front of me and I take a few steps back.

As I do the trees roots lift up and try to trap me. I jump forward causing the one root to just miss me. I decided to walk towards the music, I didn't want to be caught by the trees and end up in the forest but the lake didn't look that inviting either.

As I walk to closer the music gets louder. Is it a guitar? Again I shrug, who the f*ck cares as long as the player can tell me how to get out I will be a happy duck. I see little lights first and feel excited, not sure why but I start to run.

The lights are bugs... fine but there is a strange lady sitting on the ground playing what looks like an upside down, large ping pong paddle... no maybe... what yes a teardrop! Made of wood! I'm a genius! An extra, extra, extra... extra large wooden teardrop with a skin a** long stick attached to it and a baby stick that went across it at the top to make the letter 't'.

I took another step closer, Ha! I was right! Guitar strings, so guitar strings means it's a wooden teardrop guitar. The lady playing it seems to be ignoring me... rude. I step a little closer and brought my face in front of hers. ”Nice guitar.” I say and it causes her to miss a note.

Her concentration is gone, she opens her eyes and I couldn't help but fall backwards. Her eyes were dark but carried the galaxy within them. Her blood red lips parted slightly as she sneered. Her delicate eyebrows knitted together and I could see a vein starting to pulse right under her left eye.

”Unbelievable.” Was all she said and I could feel myself changing.