1 Chapter 1..Oh No!!!! (2/2)

Zen

Oh it is ok!  Work comes first but I have planned a special candlelight dinner and a very special romantic night for both of us..

He winked and smirked toward me

Bella

Oh!!!  Sure I get... What you are trying to say(winks).

We both shared the coffee and got back to work....

Back to reality

”Omg!!!  How can I forget that day it was sooo important he has been preparing for this day from a very long time no Oooo!!!  As I read the other text it made me more guilty he had been waiting there till 5:00 Am..I was cursing myself as I went through his texts... But my heart broke after reading his last text

Zen (5:30AM)

Bella.... I know you work hard I waited till 5 and am still waiting seating alone with the special champagne that I thought I would drink with you and the matter that I thought that I would share the story about this champagne with my very special Bella that this was the very champagne that my parents drank on the day he proposed my mom. You know I have never interrupt you with your work because I feel bad I like seeing the dedication in your eyes... You are the score to my heart I am afraid that if you leave me what would happen to me because I love you so much the first time I met you I got the feeling that you were the one I wanted you to be always my side!  But now it seems that not being with you would be painful but being with you is more painful.

Remember the shirt you got me on my birthday and I said I would were it on the day I give you a ring... I wore that shirt today.

My phone fell from my hand I could feel the shivering and slowly tears dropped from my eyes I wanted to kill myself ”Why are you soooo nice Zen?? ” I was now to ashamed to speak to him to call him to meet him and I suddenly realised that i  had to go to hospital for the meeting I thought to myself ”Zen Is going to come in the meeting too... I guess I should just end my relationship with him not because of him because he deserves someone better than me someone who will cook for him, will text him asking about his day,his health... Someone who will give him her time.. I love Zen soo much but I don't deserve his love”.I wipped my tears washed my face changed into a black pencil skirt, a white shirt with my white court and also wired my light brown long court since there was chill in the air and  grabbed my bag and my phone and my car keys. I kissed my mom on her forehead while she was cooking and said her bye.

Hospital (Conference room)

I entered in time just before it started and Zen was sitting there his eyes we're all red so he wore some glasses which made me curse myself more and feel more bad.He might fool others saying that he is ok but not me.. He did not look at me once just simply took his stuff and sat beside me seeing that another young surgeon was trying to sit next to me. I kept my hands on his hands but he pulled off and crossed his arms. During the entire meeting there was an awakward silence between him and me. My assistant message me saying that today all the surgeries that I had to perform are rescheduled I was happy that I could talk to Zen in peace..

But as the meeting ended Zen rushed out without looking at me for once I was heartbroken but inside I felt that ”I deserve it”... But suddenly I got a call from my dad I picked it up immediately

”Honey!  Please come near the main office of Han cooperation's I need you!!...”

Before I could say something he hanged up I became worried because my dad have never done something like this... So I quickly grabbed my car keys and headed towards the location but in my mind I was still thinking of Zen and me and our impossible future because of me.