10 Chapter 10 (2/2)

”I wasn't asking for an apology Olivia. I am just worried about you because you seem like you are somewhere else.”

”I am fine, can we carry on with our work?”

”Sure” as he carries on explaining to me how it all works. I focus on getting everything right. ”Okay let me void this ticket.”Yet it doesn't work and I end up making a bigger mess. Lucas sees the distraught look on my face and he rushes over. ”I'm sorry I didn't mean to get it wrong.”

”Its okay Olivia” as he fixes it with a flew clicks.

”I'm so stupid, I will never get anything right!” as I go outside. I sit there for half an hour, the day is already gone and it is late at night when Lucas comes out the shop. ”Let's go home.” He smiles at me and I am puzzled.

Why didn't he yell at me for the mistake that I had made? Was he going to do it later? Or didn't he want me to work for him anymore since he also thought I was useless. I get into the car and we start driving home.

Was he disappointed in me? He probably was, I would be too. My heart feels very heavy. What if I can't do anything right? Of course I can't. What if he chases me out? Where would I go then? Should I offer him sex as a payment? But he didn't seem like he was interested. Just go back to what you have always done. At least you will have money.

I shake my head, no that's not right. I couldn't go back to that. I couldn't endure it anymore and it had been a while since I felt like I had gained my freedom. ”Its okay Olivia, you can't get everything right especially when you are doing it for the first time.”

I turn to see Lucas is looking at me fondly. Why wasn't he angry? Why did he have to understand? It would have been much better if he got angry. I couldn't let my defence down to where he was concerned.

I don't respond to him and I Just look outside into the darkness. We get to his house. ”Go change and I will get dinner going” I nod as I walk off. I go to our room and I undress so I can change into my pyjamas. I feel very comfortable as I walk downstairs.

I find him cooking and it smells delicious. I sit by the counter as I watch him cook. ”Do you want to tell me what has been eating at you for the whole day?” I look up at him ”nothing that I can't handle”

”Why don't just tell me at least a bit.” Huh… ”Fine, I don't know when you are going to fire me or get tired of an incompetent person like me.”

He laughs as if it is some joke ”Olivia I have had my own shares of mishaps. This is your first time and you will learn to be better with time you just have to be patient with yourself.”

”What if I DON'T?” as my frustration is more prominent. ”You need to go easy on yourself and realize that you are human just like everyone”

”Its easy for you to say since you already have found your passion as a painter”

”And so will you Olivia” Why did he have to say it with such calmness and assurance. It angered me more that he was so calm and sure about everything.

”Fine if you say so” as I don't want to go in any further into the matter with him. I would play what ever he wanted me to be. I see him do his usual routine of praying before he starts to eat, he raises his head and I glare back at him. He knew what I thought.

He just smiles at me and he starts to eat. ”Sir how many women have you slept with in your lifetime?” he chokes on his water as he starts to cough really loud. He is beet red and I see the look in his eyes. ”Wow don't tell me you haven't slept with anyone.”

His silence confirms the answer that I was looking for. He was a virgin. ”I could teach you a few things you know” he doesn't say anything. ”But Sir” I wait for him to look at me. ”Why haven't you had sex?”

”Because I'm not married yet.” He really does look calm. ”what?”

”The first person I'm going to make love to is my wife.” I tilt my head in amusement ”so wouldn't a virgin be better for you too?”

He looks up and gazes at me squarely ”No I don't care if you are a virgin or not, Olivia.”

”Really, wouldn't it be a magical experience” as I mock him. ”Two virgins find love and they stay together forever as they discover each other.”

”Life is not all about sex you know. I believe if you find the right person then everything will fall into place.” It seemed as if Lucas was living in a bubble, did he really think that life was that simple. If he knew half of her past, he would have already left.

”You don't know much of this world. You would run for the hills if I told you half of what I have done.”

”Try me then.”