Chapter 90 - Things no one has told me but you (1) (1/2)

Chapter 90 – Things no one has told me but you (1)

Translator: SKAIS Editor: Eyeful Solstice

I’m not sure if he was doing this because of longing or it’s just that out of naivety.

I took a small breath and shut my eyes tightly as I did. Then, I opened them as I gave out a deep sigh.

Glancing over at his hand, there was something that bothered me a little while ago…And my eyes stopped in one place.

Oh, of course.

His wrists had been slightly scratched and reddened by the handcuffs. Furthermore, I heard that the sound of chains being pulled is unusual. Poor thing.

He looked at my eyes, then followed the place where my eyes stayed, then turned his head to his side as if wondering what was wrong with it. In a matter of seconds, our eyes met, afterwards, I gave out a slight shrug and spoke.

“Doesn’t your wrist hurt?”

He was an unsusceptible child; no, a beast,  who couldn’t say he was sick. He has no idea what pain is, or how to feel ache on his body.

“It doesn’t hurt.” he answered after a moment.

I chuckled lightly when I heard a small voice that came from him. What should I do with this man? I thought. I don’t know why I laughed, but I’m amused that he’s talking, glad even.

“Yes, I hope one day I know what it’s like to be sick.” Ricdorian said.

Maybe this is not something I can tell him now, but soon.

In time, he’ll understand. It’s really difficult to explain something to someone who has never felt  it, or known it. I held his hands together.

The chains gave clinking sounds as I did. It echoed throughout the entire cell. Silence followed. Between me, and the chains, and him, there’s nobody here besides us. I broke the creeping silence when I spoke.

“Because it’s important to realize the pain,” I said, then he flinched. At the same time, he looked at me with a slightly ragged face. He pressed his lips together then looked down.

“Pain is also a warning sign of a greater danger. So you could avoid getting into something more dangerous. Please don’t ignore it. And don’t let things hurt you.” I carefully explained.

“Things that make you sick.” Ricdorian muttered.

“Yes. If you can’t do anything right now, you can do other things to get by. It’s not bad to not feel anything at all, for now.”

I raised his hand and put it on my chest. He looked at his hands then at me. I could see his eyes narrowing a bit, but then it disappeared.

“You can wait for the right moment, for the right opportunity.”

I don’t know how much I can do to let him know. But it would be okay to show him something that would be easier for him to understand. Something that would be easy for him to remember. At least he wouldn’t be confused.

“Someday, everything will return back in time.”

That day will definitely come to you.

He didn’t seem to understand it at all, but he nodded slowly.

“Okay? If it hurts, say it hurts. But I’m telling you, you don’t want to get hurt. Nobody wants to get hurt. Now, follow me. Wait, no…I can’t, I won’t live.”

I jokingly added at the end.

He narrowed his eyes, and I know what his expression meant. He wasn’t buying my joke. Or maybe he just doesn’t get it? Of course, it was a joke that wouldn’t work here.

Soon, Ricdorian reiterated whether he understood only the preceding expression. He’s honestly quite clueless about most things.

“You don’t want to?”

“Huh. I don’t want to.”

I hate him, I hate him… I mumbled softly like a mantra. Then he straightened his head and looked right through me.

“…Remember, I will.” The cold blue eyes stared straight at me as if they had stuck me in their eyes.

“Nobody else…told me… about all you just said…” He tightened his fingers around mine.