11 -Effects on me- (1/2)

His usual concrete control seems to have slipped a notch.

”I don't understand why you didn't tell me,” he castigates me.

”The subject never came up. I'm not in the habit of revealing my sexual status to everyone I meet. I mean, we have knew each other for like half of my life.” I'm staring at my hands. Why am I feeling guilty? Why is he so mad? I peek up at him.

”Well, you know a lot more about me”

he snaps, his mouth presses into a hard line. ”I knew you were inexperienced, but a virgin!” He says it like it's a really dirty word.

”Hell, Sarah, I just showed you,” he groans. ”May God forgive me. Have you ever been kissed, apart from the peck  I gave to you on the airplane ?”

”Of course I have.” I try my best to look affronted. Okay… maybe twice. By Corey,  I mean it's more than twice though.

”And a nice young man hasn't swept you off your feet? I just don't understand. You're twenty-two, nearly twenty-three.

You're beautiful.” He runs his hand through his hair again.

Beautiful. I flush with pleasure. Jace Alicanté thinks I'm beautiful. I knot my fingers together, staring at them hard, trying to conceal my goofy grin.

Perhaps he's near-sighted, my subconscious has reared her somnambulant head. Where was she when I needed her?

”And you're seriously discussing what I want to do, when you have no experience.” His brows knit together. ”How have you avoided sex? Tell me, please.”

I shrug.

”No one's really, you know, except  for Xavier who tried to force himself on me in the bathroom,  but you and Izzy came to my rescue,  remember? .”

He smiled,  ”Hell yeah,  I remembered pretty well. ”

”Why are you so angry with me?” I whisper.

”I'm not angry with you, I'm angry with myself. I just assumed… ” He sighs. He regards me shrewdly and then shakes his head. ”Do you want to go?” he asks, his voice gentle.