Chapter 180 - His Light (1/2)

When Shi Qingxue straightforwardly spoke out her doubts, Mo Junyang stiffened, like a statue.

For a long time, Mo Junyang didn’t move or reply.

But Qingxue got the affirmative answer from his ghastly pale face.

Right, without that memory, she was not Shi Qingxue anymore.

At least, it was true in Mo Junyang’s opinion.

Shi Qingxue was still doubtful, but another kind of pain spread over her chest.

She didn’t even understand why she was in pain, but the pain was severe.

However, Shi Qingxue was strong enough. The more pain she felt, the stronger she pretended to be. Facing Mo Junyang, she was more fearless and asked coldly, “Mo Junyang, I want to know how you feel about it.”

She confronted him directly. Even if there were immense dangers and difficulties ahead and she would bleed, she would keep going.

This was Shi Qingxue at this age.

After going through everything in the previous life, Shi Qingxue became smart and calm, but she was not as decisive and brave as before.

Mo Junyang was stunned and looked blankly at Shi Qingxue’s face.

He suddenly remembered that in the previous life, he was attracted by Shi Qingxue who was so dazzling. Even though they were enemies then, with one respected and one lowly, and as a girl everybody doted on, she had never shown any warmness to Mo Junyang, a hostage, she was always sparkling and forthright.

She was his light!

Shi Qingxue didn’t know what was on Mo Junyang’s mind. Seeing that he looked at her in a daze, she was more resentful and poked his shoulder, asking the question once more. Then she glared at him and insisted on getting an answer.

Why was she not “her”?

Mo Junyang was speechless, or rather there was no answer.

One was the girl he cared for all the time, and the other was the girl he had a crush on in the first place.

Why was there any difference?

After a long time, he smiled again and looked more relaxed than before. Even his eyes and brows were not that cold.

He answered frankly, “I don’t know, either. Maybe you will get the answer only when you can remember.”

Shi Qingxue was stunned for a while and then accepted this reason, but she still looked gloomy. “In fact, I asked my father. He told me that you helped me a lot in the past one year, probably more than all that I can remember.

“But it was just one year. If you really mind, can’t you just tell me?”

Mo Junyang replied in his heart, “It was not just one year but a lifetime.”

However, he just responded casually with a smile, “Nobody can tell you what happened in your memory. Only what you can remember is true.”

“But if you don’t give me a clue, how can I recall?” Shi Qingxue softened.

Mo Junyang stared at her for a minute and then looked away, saying distantly, “I am sorry.”

Shi Qingxue was angry and anxious to rush to him to bite on his neck.

In fact, these days, there were strange but familiar pictures flashing in Qingxue’s brain occasionally, which made her respond by instinct.

Or rather it made her express her feelings.

For example, with the memory of the last fifteen years, she should be close to Mo Shujun, but now she was only alert to and disappointed at her grandmother, so as soon as she returned home, she went to see Mo Shujun first to prevent anybody from gossiping.

Another example, she should be on intimate terms with Dong Hui, but as for the doubts about Mo Junyang, she subconsciously knew that she couldn’t get an answer from Dong Hui, so she asked Shi Junhe.

…

It was difficult to describe everything that happened during the period, but she was clear about one point that the memory belonged to her.

It seemed to be covered with a gauze and was there but couldn’t be seen clearly.

So she was angry at Mo Junyang’s distance because she lost her memory, but she had never been angry with him.

However…

Shi Qingxue slyly rolled her eyes when Mo Junyang couldn’t see her, and she had an idea.

She didn’t yell at Mo Junyang but even smiled joyfully. “In that case, I think we shouldn’t see each other before I can remember what I have forgotten.”

“What?” Mo Junyang looked back suddenly and thought he must have misheard.

Shi Qingxue nodded boldly and replied casually, “Right, you hear me. I am dependent on you now. If you are too close to me, I won’t be willing to recall what happened in the past because…”

She suddenly stopped speaking.