23 The Gates of Evolution (1/2)
My first evolution ends up with me dying, again. Fucking lackluster.
How would I describe what the fuck was going on at this very moment? Is this really how evolution works? I always thought it would be more enlightening than this.
I don't even know where I am. Is this what death feels like? Empty and extremely cold. My body was completely numb and lifeless. It was like I had never existed. Time had stopped, there was no black or white color to be seen. No heavenly lights from above or scorching flames from hell below. I was not in a dream void either. It was like I was stuck in an infinite loop of nothingness.
”Well now, it seems you're lost, Peculiar one.” Echoes an unknown voice.
”Who's talking?” I ask as I spin my head around and see a shadowy humanoid figure in a meditation stance. I presume that I was in my human soul form as my hands were translucent like a ghost and I was able to float easily in the air. There was no center of gravity in this mysterious realm.
”Who am I? Who are you? What am I? What are you? Such fruitless questions when compared to the Grand Universe and Cosmos of Beyond. The shadow humaniod tilts his faceless head in a impossible angle that would have snapped my neck off if I were to copied its exact movements.
”So, are you saying that I am dead?” I infer as I sat down with the creepy shadow figure and cross my legs in a meditation stance.
”Haha! Humans are such one minded creatures. They care so much about life, but they rarely accept death. You must embrace both to become stronger. To answer your insignificant question, you are merely transforming. In this very moment and time, your soul and body are morphing.”
”What will I become?” I ask as I look at my ghostly soul hands.
”You will become what actions you have done. When I look at your soul aura all I see is nothing but emptiness. I see someone lost and afraid to accept the truth.”
”I am not afraid! The things I've seen will make anyone go mad! I am not some mindless insane murder! I only kill to survive in a world that is filled with beast and demons!” I yell out as I grit my teeth in anger.
”How mendacious of you. You are still holding on to your sanity. Tell me this mortal. Why is it when countless humans go to war and slaughter each other over meaningless matters, no one lefts a finger to care about the fallen? No, no those human souls are expendable in their eyes. But when one King dies every mortal whimpers and cry's for his demise. When one legend dies they build great statues and halls of gold to mourn them. Yet when thousands die they forget about those souls as if they were nothing but dirt and dust dissipating into the wind.” The Shadow Humanoid forms one large, pulsating, bloody-red eye on its forehead and stands up, its body towers over me with godly proportions.
”How much is one life really worth? Kill one God, hated by all. Slaughter thousands of mortals and you are a monster.” It raises both of his godly hands upwards in a Scales of Justice position.
”What does this have to do with me?” I snarled as get up and look for a way out of this dark void realm.
”Everything. You have two choices in this world as with any living being in Zareth. Accept your humanity and mortal soul, knowing that you can never become something greater or accept your primal instincts and monster urges to evolve into a beast of great power.” The Shadow Humanoid opens its palms and constructs a black hole in one palm and a flaming sun on the other to show its omnipotent powers and dominance over me.
”And if I chose neither?” I said as I point my index figure at the godly shadow-like supreme being.
”You are truly are a peculiar one. It's a matter of choice. But one who does not choose a path will be lost for all entirety. One can't evolve if they can't change and chose their destiny.”
Yeah, this unknown deity is right. I have been so close-minded since I was reborn into a tentacle monster I never had the chance to experience anything worthwhile when I was blind. But in Zareth that was different. I could see everything and experience a whole new world. I know I still felt bad about what I did to Violet, how I attacked Sira, and devouring the baby goblins and orcs. It was my human instincts and nature to feel guilt and sorrow. Then again, I am not a human anymore. I know what choice I must make.
”I've decided, but before I tell you. Tell me, what are you?” I asked again.
”OHH? Have you? I am…”
”What I can't hear you- Aaahhhhh! My head!” I grip my forehead and fall inside a mass of dark matter.
An infinite warp of giant marble gate doors with metal chains wrapped over them started to appear all around me. The gates slowly cracked opened like a dragonling hatching from its dragon egg. A loud ”CREAK!” reverberated across the endless void of nothing. The mighty marble gate doors had opened wide.
Through the open gates, I see millions upon millions of glowing red eyes glaring at me in the dark void of my mindscape.