375 Just for now (1/2)
Abi pulled away and stared into his face while Alex lifted his hand to wipe her tears away. His brows pulled together because seeing her cry was unbearable for him.
”Shh… don't cry…” he uttered. His fingers continued caressing her face gently but her tears continued flowing as she stared at him.
”Such a crybaby…” he continued and he pulled her face towards him. His lips replaced his fingers and he kissed her tears away, trying his very best to calm her down, to make her feel better, and to make her stop crying.
His lips trailed down until their lips met but after a second or two, he halted. He didn't dare devour her lips even if he badly wanted to kiss her because his mind flashed back to that moment again when he had grabbed her neck. That scene was still too vivid in his mind and he couldn't help but curse himself.
He pulled away, bumping his forehead on hers.
”I'm sorry…” he began. ”Forgive me, Abigail.”
His voice was weak and a little choked. He sounded incredibly remorseful. This was the first time she ever heard him speak like this, as if he loathed himself to his core.
This made Abi feel nervous. She remembered that moment she saw in her dreams when Alex was saying goodbye to her at the hospital, asking her to forgive him.
With a panicked expression, Abi's grip on him suddenly tightened. ”No… Please… don't ever leave me again, Alex,” she begged, tearing up again.
Alex was surprised and confused. ”Abigail, I'm not leaving, okay?” he told her, a little worried because this little lamb of his seemed to be acting out of character. And what did she mean by 'again'? He never left her. She was the one who left him! Was she talking about the first night they met, after the party?
”R-really? Then why are you saying sorry?” she asked, looking relieved. She had thought that she was saying sorry because he was leaving her again.
Alex's eyes fell on the awful marks on her neck and his eyes sunk with regret. He looked away, guilt flooding in his eyes. ”I'm saying sorry because I… hurt you. And I nearly killed you…” he uttered as he looked down at his hands. ”With these hands.”
Abi finally realized what this was all about. She held his face and made him look at her.
”Alex… I'm fine. I'm here. Even in that state, you didn't hurt me. This is nothing. They're just bruises. They will fade away in time,” she frantically said, trying to make him understand that she wasn't hurt. That she was okay.
But Alex didn't look convinced.
”Alex!” Abigail yelled at him, jolting him. Her eyes were filled with worry as she looked at his bleeding lips. But thankfully, she saw that they healed quite fast.