318 The most selfish line (2/2)

”They tried Kelly. Someone I knew tried and it ended in disaster. So please listen to me. This is for your sake.”

”So you're pushing me away not because you don't love me but because I would be in danger, right?”

Kai couldn't reply. Not because he didn't love her? He didn't know. All he knew was that he just couldn't leave her alone. And he couldn't resist her. His heart right now sped up abnormally every time she kissed him. Since they left his room this morning, he had this feeling deep within him that he didn't want her to go.

”Don't worry too much, baby,” she whispered as she licked his lips. ”Let's give each other a chance, shall we? Let's just test it. If… if we're really not meant to be then I will give up. But right now, I don't want to give up without even trying.”

Kai knew this was a bad idea. He had seen it before. Doing this would only cause more heartache and if it ended badly, that ending would be brutally… painful. So why couldn't he say no? Why couldn't he push her away? Why did he… why did he suddenly want to be selfish now?

In a way she was right. A sexless relationship might actually work… No! Damn, what was he thinking?

Kai buried his head on her shoulder. His silky hair rubbed against Kelly's face and she smelled his fresh and yummy scent. He was like a spring flower she wanted to smell all day, all night.

”If I say 'no', what will you do?”

Kelly froze and didn't respond. She was silent even when Kai lifted his face and looked at her. She just stared at him, unmoving like a doll.

Kelly didn't really think of a plan B, of what she would do if he had rejected her. When she decided to confess to him, she had only meant to do it so that she would have no regrets. But as she said those words, she realised that she didn't want to just leave things like that. She wanted to at least push and try and do everything she could to make it work so that even if it didn't work out in the end, she could look back and tell herself that she had done everything she could possibly do. At that point, she would move on without looking back, without regret. Maybe.

The silence dragged on. It was deafening and the intensity of her gaze was something Kai couldn't bear.

”Fine.” he gave in. ”Let's try...”

A smile broke on Kelly's face and she hugged him. ”Oh gosh! You really are such a sweet, cutie pie. This is why I fell in love with you.” She kissed his cheek. She looked so happy and relieved and excited.

”Thank you,” she whispered and then, her lips found his. She parted his lips and he let her in and in just a matter of seconds, the car started to be filled with moans from their intense kisses. She was just so good at this whole kissing thing and it didn't help that he was very attracted to her too. She pressed her body against him until there was no more space left between them.

She was like a merciless wildfire, burning him. Even his guilt didn't escape. It felt crazy but it seemed he wanted to be burned by her. And for the first time he uttered the most selfish line he had thought in some time, 'come what may'.