177 I Canst Wai (1/2)

”Jiaaaaaaaa, where's you brain! ”

She covered her face with both of her hands and squealed into it at the top of her lungs. How could she ever face him?Even if he was clueless of the reason why she was crying,who could ever tell her transparency in his eyes? How could she ever overcome from shame if he would speculate that the reason of her miseries was him and her forbidden jealousy?

Thanks to her dumbness! She wouldn't have the nerve to face him anymore in their breakfast later and in the rest of their activities.

She stood up and began walking by the shoreline. But everytime her thoughtsoverwhelmed him, she would wriggle and run.If only

she would count how many times she walked around the resort's premises, she would know that the distance she covered would already be from where she was up to their homeplace!

Damn it Jia!How could you be so absent - minded? You're digging your own grave of guilt and shame....

By the time she ended at the pool,she was already panting andexhausted. Yet, those forceful ways of releasingher energy were her most effective ways of venting out.She settled into a chaise lounge and closed her eyes to relax,trying to empty out her mind from undesirable thoughts.

Looking into the pool later, she lost her excitement to dip into the water but she remembered that her eyes may had been puffing out already. The beckoning waters will be its therapy. She slowly stood up to take a shower and thenreturned to the pool with her boyleg tankini.

She then treadedand lied on the water with her back,kicking gently and slowly to maintain her bouyancy.With eyes closed,she felt the coldness of the water as itgently soaked her whole body. The chilling sensation it brought was a buffer to her blazing disgust towards her own self.

As she opened her eyes later, she saw a figure of a man standing by the pool staircase. Blurred by the splash of water droplets in her eyes, she brushed it away and realized that it was Anthon. Right then, the calm emotion that had just settled within her, flared again into a mess. She closed her eyes again trying to ignore him,pretending that she did not notice his presence.

”Jia,you already have twenty missed calls. It might be urgent.” Anthon called out, as he went over to the corner of the pool closer to her.

Twenty missed calls? She remembered that she left her phone in the chaise lounge together with her clothes. And for him to know about the calls would likely be because he had been in that seat. How long had he been watching her?

She glanced at him without a word, then turned into a prone position as she propelled herself gracefully towards the ladder through a front crawl.

Picking her phone up once she was back at the chaise lounge, she saw indeed that she got twenty calls from Koko. She gave him back a ring and the call was picked up instantly.

”Ko,I'm sorry for missing your

calls. ” She said as she looked around to make sure that she was not being heard.

Anthon was no longer on the spot where he stood. Perhaps, he already went ahead with his morning jog. So,

she turned the speaker on as she was still dripping. Then, she sat into the lounge and leaned on the backrest as she put on again her shirt and pants over her tankini.

”Anna,where are you? You're killing me with worries. What is it? ” Koko asked worriedly through the other line.

”Ko,I can't talk about it yet. Can we just talk personally,please? ”