5 No More (2/2)
Until nothing was left.
Her dignity, her pride and her values were all shattered into pieces, leaving her nothing but hatred.
She looked at the shougong sha mark[2] on her left arm and laughed mockingly. Her tender body was unsoiled and chaste, but she felt dirtier than a prostitute.
She, the Eldest Di Daughter of XiangFu, the only granddaughter of Great General Chen, was violated to death. What a funny way to die.
Like a dirty rag, she was thrown somewhere after being used a couple of times.
She loathed them.
She loathed them very much that she wished she could rip open their rib cages and dug out their hearts. She craved to drink their black blood and eat their rotten flesh until nothing was left---not even their bones.
She hated them---no, she abhorred them. Enough to make her mind go crazy and mad.
She also blamed herself for being weak and unable to retaliate and defend herself. She hated the fact that she was touched and defiled countless of times even if what happened that night could be treated as a nightmare, a nightmare that would vanish once she wakes up the next morning. Unfortunately, that distant dream would never disappear and would always haunt her forever... unless she would be able to avenge her previous self.
No matter what she did she could not forget the nasty taste and putrid smell of their liquid as they crazily humiliate her like she was a breeding animal. Every time those scenes were played inside her mind, she felt nauseated. She wanted to puke due to disgust.
XuanRong continuously rubbed her skin with wet cloth until it bled, hoping that she could erase the horrible memory inside her head by wiping her body roughly.
Her eyes were full of anger and shame as she recalled her horrible experience in the hands of those beasts.
Even if she reincarnated and returned to her past self, even if the current 'her' was still an untouched virgin--- pure and innocent, it wouldn't change the fact that she once experienced being defiled mercilessly.
The pain and humiliation she felt that time would never disappear, leaving a huge scar in her heart that would never heal no matter how long time passed.
XuanRong continued to rub her body until she could feel the stinging pain all over her skin. She bit her lower lip as she tried to suppress the scream trying to escape from her mouth.
*drop*
*drop*
*drop*
She could not help but cry painfully as she roughly washed herself, scrubbing every nook and cranny until she felt numb all over her body.
After hours of scrubbing herself until her skin turned red, XuanRong stood up and grabbed her robe that was hanging on the dividing screen.
She dried her body and wiped her tears. The hand that was holding the robe tightened as she took a deep breath, trying to compose herself.
'This is the last time that I will cry. I already have no more tears to shed. The next time... It will be their turn to cry and beg for mercy.'
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[1]. 'Girl'- can be used to address young girls, servants or as a form of endearment.
[2]. Cinnabar Mark/ Virginity Mark- a red dot/mark placed on female children and will disappear once they had their first sexual intercourse due 'excessive' loss of blood during mating.
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