14 Celestias Story (1/2)
”With revenge.”
Although I already expected those words, the fervour and the amount of hatred in her voice was overwhelming even for me. If I was the one targeted by it, it would be quite problematic to bear with it. I was quite surprised that even with her unwillingness to live she still revealed this killing intent.
”As I thought, but why are you so unwilling to live if you want the revenge so badly?” This question was bugging me throughout our whole conversation. Celestia clearly wanted revenge but at the same time wanted to end her life in misery. What situation could even lead to such extreme and polar opposite emotions?
”It's not that I am unwilling but the 'living' for me and the 'living' for you are two diametrically different things,” Celestia said in the pained voice.
Quite surprised by her answer I inquired even further, ”Why is that so?”
”Let's see,” Celestia took a deep breath. ”For you living should be being born, get parental love, grew up, experience first love, being adult, work, marry the girl you love, have family, children, grandchildren and then satisfied with most parts of your life die in a high age...”
She looked in my eyes and I could only nod. This was indeed a way to live. It's basically the same what I thought as well when I was on earth and think that's the most ordinary way to live.
Celestia continued, ”I think this is what every person have the right to experience. Everyone has a right to be happy or to feel being loved and I thought I was going to be the same. My parents loved me, I had a twin sister who was my best friend, I had my first love I was going to marry I had everything and everyone by my side, I was talented as my sister and was praised wherever I went... Or so I thought...” Tears slowly fell from her eyes and she was sobbing. It was a definitely painful experience for her. I saw Celestia open her mouth a couple of times but she only choked on her words and started crying even harder.
”Headmistress, don't force yourself if the events of the past are too hurtful for you to tell me can you at least tell me the consequences of those events?”
She eventually calmed down lifted her face and asked, ”Consequences?”
”Yes, consequences... And by those consequences, I mean your injuries.” I said in the most gentle tone possible I could say to her. ”I won't force if you don't want to talk about it, but I ultimately want to know the real reason you came to me.”
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”After a full two hours of silence, Celestia lifted her head and started to explain in a soft voice, ”My injuries were extremely severe and if not for a slight mistake on the enemy's part I would be dead for sure. At that time I had been one step short to becoming Mage God within all five of my elements, as I was in seclusion I got attacked and lost heavenly connection to the mana of basic elements. I know this sounds confusing as I acknowledged your answer to 'what my elements are?' but let me explain further.”
I attentively listened to Celestia's explanation with all of my concentration and she continued.
”You already know basic elements. I was proficient in wind, light and water. At the time of breakthrough to the Magic God, the mage needs to form 'channels' between Heaven and Earth, leading to the ascension and then abandoning all of the earthly mana replacing it by heavenly one, Once done mage will face heavenly tribulations. Heavenly Tribulations will be stronger the more elements you want to become as Mage God in. I wanted to and believed in myself that I could face Five Heavenly Tribulations, thus becoming Five Element Mage God. However, I was betrayed.”
Celestia clenched her fists so much that blood started to drop on the floor. I thought she would break down again, but to my surprise, she continued to talk about her past.
”I successfully 'formed' the channels and disregarded mana belonging to Wind, Water and Light elements, meaning that I could only use Time and Spatial attribute. Both of those attributes are non-combat related so I was in my weakest state. I was attacked without being able to defend myself and could only freeze my injuries in time and try to teleport away. Although my breakthrough was interrupted and 'channels', as well as my connection to the three elements were shattered, I still had to face all Five Heavenly Tribulations. Although my connection was shattered and elements couldn't be used I still had them at Half-Step Magic God realm. However, that was impossible. How could I face the heavens being heavily injured, without my three combat-related elements and without any mana?” Celestia was bitterly smiling and mocking herself.
”The only way for me to live was to cripple myself of the three basic elements completely and use all of my remaining mana and break into a new dimension. In the end, I succeeded. Using the little time and strength I had I created the Royal Academy as my stronghold and facility for my recuperation. I was crippled, injured and I forced myself into the vegetative state. I used Time Magic to seal myself including the injuries, my soul, my body and the remaining mana and wait for the day I could reopen my eyes once again. That day happened 20 years ago.” Celestia ended her story but then she answered my second question.