Chapter 45 - 45: Career Plan (1/2)

(Michelle POV)

As I sat in the library staring at the study materials that I needed to review in preparation for the evaluation exams, my mind started drifting.

English class was uneventful. Anthony concentrated on the lecture, and I dare not attempt to call his attention. What if he blames me when he fails the evaluation exam? So, in the end, I tried to listen too, but really, I can't. How could I focus when he was next to me? So, like usual, I spent my time stealing glances at his oh so perfect face.

Anyway, when class ended, I was unable to hand the box of ginseng to him as he needed to leave right after our class. So, I decided to just give it to him tomorrow after PE.

Now, let us go back to my predicament. Should I pass the English evaluation exam? I flipped the review material in front of me.

Subject, predicate, pronoun, noun, running sentence… What the heck? Just looking at these, my head is already in a jumbled mess. I know English and I used it a lot after graduating, but not in these technical terms. Ugh.

You know what? I don't think Anthony would be turned off if I fail. Why? Because he will fail too. Then, will Anthony admire me if I pass? No! He would not have time to admire me because we won't be classmates anymore! To hell with it! I'll just flunk it. It's not like failing the exam would be a life and death situation for me.

I turned to the Math Samplex where I need to memorize formulas. Gods, I can barely recall how I passed all these subjects before. Right now, I can already feel an incoming nosebleed. Why do I have to study these again? I can't!!!!

The major subjects, I can still take it. But core subjects? I won't even use them in the future. Geometry, Calculus and the likes. Why are students required to take these courses anyway?

How could I even think of making my grades better than my blockmates? The new and improved student me!? So funny. How could I focus on these when I know they are completely bullocks and useless to me in the future? Real young students would study hard, aim for latin honors, be cumlaude, magnacumlaude, sumacumlaude, valedictorian etc! But what's the use of those when one enters corporate world aside from giving a nice addition to one's resume?

It will help in getting one for the interview, but even then, the human resource would look at the person's physical attributes before hiring! Sometimes, it's even by recommendation.

Then, afterwards, it's all about your own ability of sucking up to your bosses, or by real ability which is even more rare. Gods, my mind has already been inflicted with realities that I can't handle studying for nothing anymore. I just want to enjoy my campus life without the necessity to study too much.

But I need to pass and graduate. Even if I'm not gonna use it in the future, how would I be able to show my face to people in our circle if I didn't even finish college? Plus, how will I spend more time with my Anthony? My campus romance dream?

Thinking about it, what should I do after I graduate? Do I have to work again? NO WAY! I want to live my dream of a semi-retired housewife just waiting for cash to come in and me to spend it like dirt!

However, looking back, I can't just depend on my husband to give me money, even my inheritance might not be so safe. Who knows if I can't change what happens to our family in the future? Also, I need to have some form of achievement of my own. For if not, even my love life would be doomed to fail. Why?