Chapter 9: Asthmatic? Right. (1/2)

Michelle POV

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When I turned to face him so that I could pass him the syllabus, he was ready to receive it. Our eyes met and I thought my heart would lurch out of my ribcage. I did not have enough sense to even school my facial expression, so I don't know what I looked like and how he saw me.

Still, politely, he smiled and said, ”Thank you.” And I thought my soul just went to heaven.

Did I come back to this time just so that I can meet him again? Was I sent here so that I can save him from the time of his death? Gosh, I'm just crushing over a dead man, and well, maybe I died in that elevator too. Who knows?

Oh, Michelle, don't get ahead of yourself. You just saw your real future husband awhile ago and now you're already here going gaga over another man.

Anyway, before I could even say 'you're welcome' he already turned away from me. Maybe he thought I was weird? Or maybe I did not make any lasting impression on him? Why am I even placing so much meaning behind that? Maybe he's just being a normal teenager. Duh!

Still, even though I knew I should be 31, my heart felt like that of a teenage girl. I was even finding teenage boys attractive. Was it because I am back to this body despite my older mentality?

The professor started talking about the syllabus and what we need to prepare for the next meeting. All that time, I have been peeking glances at Anthony. Will I be able not to make a babbling fool of myself if I talk to him now? I recall that we only got to talk 3 times in our lives and all those only in the parameters of this classroom because of some class activity.

In the past, I am positive that he knew my name at the very least or can recognize my face because during my other years in this university, although we never got to become classmates again, we did pass by each other occasionally. Of course, some chance encounter I actually set-up myself just so that I can see him smile at me and say hi.

Though that's all there was ever to it. I would stalk him from afar, then when I feel like I look my best, I would pretend that we're having a chance encounter and pass by each other. Yes, I was desperate but too shy to tell him what I felt. Janina was usually with me when I did that. I will ask her to stay put in a certain location so she can spy at Anthony's expression after our 'chance' encounter.

Anyway, moving back to the present, I tried to listen to the announcements our professor was making. ”Next meeting, we will have a short quiz. No need to review as it will be a reading comprehension…”

After that announcement, the class was dismissed early. Anthony started placing the syllabus in his bag. Should I talk to him now?

I swallowed. Am I ready for this? Can I do this? A part of me should be guilty as I'm already married but please, I'm not some Holy Mary, mother of God, so my heart could still beat for someone other than my husband. Plus, it's not like we're married in this timeline already, and he was even having the time of his life with Lara for now.

Perhaps, I have been staring at Anthony so intently as I tried to decipher my next move that he noticed.