Chapter 152 (1/2)
”Me?”
”Yes.” His lips quirk up in a soft smile. ”The best decision I ever made was marrying you.”
Oh my. ”Not starting your company?”
He shakes his head.
”Not learning to fly?”
He shakes his head. ”You,” he mouths. He caresses my cheek with his knuckles. ”She knew,” he whispers.
I frown. ”She knew what?”
”That I was head over heels in love with you. She encouraged me to go down to Georgia to see you, and I'm glad she did. She thought you'd freak out and leave. Which you did.”
I pale. I'd rather not think about that.
”She thought I needed all the trappings of the lifestyle I enjoyed.”
”The Dom?” I whisper.
He nods. ”It enabled me to keep everyone at arm's length, gave me control, and kept me detached, or so I thought. I'm sure you've worked out why,” he adds softly.
”Your birth mom?”
”I didn't want to be hurt again. And then you left me.” His words are barely audible. ”And I was a mess.”
Oh no.
”I've avoided intimacy for so long - I don't know how to do this.”
”You're doing fine,” I murmur. I trace his lips with my index finger. He purses them into a kiss. You're talking to me.
”Do you miss it?” I whisper.
”Miss it?”
”That lifestyle.”
”Yes, I do.”
Oh!
”But only insofar as I miss the control it brings. And frankly, your stupid stunt” - he stops - ”that saved my sister,” he whispers, his words full of relief, awe, and disbelief. ”That's how I know.”
”Know?”
”Really know that you love me.”
I frown. ”What?”
”Because you risked so much . . . for me, for my family.”
My frown deepens. He reaches over and traces his finger over the middle of my brow above my nose.
”You have a V here when you frown,” he murmurs. ”It's very soft to kiss. I can behave so badly . . . and yet you're still here.”
”Why are you surprised I'm still here? I told you I wasn't going to leave you.”
”Because of the way that I behaved when you told me you were pregnant.” He runs his finger down my cheek. ”You were right. I am an adolescent.”