Chapter 54 (1/2)
Oh, baby, don’t give up on me. Give it a try.
She grasps my arms, kissing me back, and I don’t want to stop. She’s intoxicating and the darkness is quiet, calmed by the young woman in front of me. Reluctantly, I pull back and lean my forehead against hers.
She’s breathless, like me. “Anastasia, what are you doing to me?”
“I could say the same to you,” she whispers.
I know I have to leave. She has me in a tailspin, and I don’t know why. I kiss her forehead and walk down the path toward the R8. She stands watching me from the doorway. She hasn’t gone in. I smile, pleased that she’s still watching as I climb into the car.
When I look back, she’s gone.
Shit. What just happened? No wave good-bye?
I start the car and begin the drive back to Portland, analyzing what’s taken place between us.
She e-mailed me.
I went to her.
We fucked.
She threw me out before I was ready to leave.
For the first time—well, maybe not the first time—I feel a little used, for sex. It’s a disturbing feeling that reminds me of my time with Elena.
Hell! Miss Steele is topping from the bottom, and she doesn’t even know it. And fool that I am, I’m letting her.
I have to turn this around. This soft-sell approach is messing with my head.
But I want her. I need her to sign.
Is it just the chase? Is that what’s turning me on? Or is it her?
Fuck, I don’t know. But I hope to find out more on Wednesday. And on a positive note, that was one hell of a nice way to spend an evening. I smirk in the rearview mirror and pull into the garage at the hotel.
When I’m back in my room I sit down at my laptop.
Focus on what you want, where you want to be. Isn’t that what Flynn is always harassing me about, his solution-based shit?
* * *
From: Christian Grey
Subject: This Evening
Date: May 23 2011 23:16
To: Anastasia Steele
Miss Steele,
I look forward to receiving your notes on the contract.
Until then, sleep well, baby.
Christian Grey
CEO, Grey Enterprises Holdings, Inc.
And I want to add, Thank you for another diverting evening… but that seems a little over the top. Pushing my laptop aside because Ana will probably be asleep, I pick up the Detroit report and continue reading.
TUESDAY, MAY 24, 2011