Chapter 77 (1/2)
”Okay... Well gagging me. I'd be worried I wouldn't be able to breathe”
”I'd be worried if you couldn't breathe. I don't want to suffocate you.”
”And how will I use safe words if I'm gagged?”
He pauses.
”First of all, I hope you never have to use them. But if you're gagged, we'll use hand signals,” he says simply.
I blink up at him. But if I'm trussed up, how's that going to workMy brain is beginning to fog... hmm alcohol.
”I'm nervous about the gagging.”
”Okay. I'll take note.”
I stare up at him, realization dawning.
”Do you like tying your submissives up so they can't touch you?”
He gazes at me, his eyes widening.
”That's one of the reasons,” he says quietly.
”Is that why you've tied my hands?”
”Yes.”
”You don't like talking about that,” I murmur.
”No, I don't. Would you like another drinkIt's making you brave, and I need to know how you feel about pain.”
Holy crap... this is the tricky part. He refills my teacup, and I sip.
”So, what's your general attitude to receiving pain?” Christian looks expectantly at me.
”You're biting your lip,” he says darkly.
I stop immediately, but I don't know what to say. I flush and stare down at my hands.
”Were you physically punished as a child?”
”No.”
”So you have no sphere of reference at all?”
”No.”
”It's not as bad as you think. Your imagination is your worst enemy in this,” he whispers.
”Do you have to do it?”
”Yes.”
”Why?”
”Goes with the territory, Anastasia. It's what I do. I can see you're nervous. Let's go through methods.”
He shows me the list. My subconscious runs, screaming, and hides behind the couch.
Spanking
Paddling
Whipping
Caning
Biting
Nipple clamps
Genital clamps
Ice
Hot wax
Other types/methods of pain