Chapter 63: Shirt stripping, Breasts revealing (1/2)

TL: flarewk

”Eeehh, apologize?”

Carrying upon a face of guilt, Lan Hua silently nodded her head as she said.

”That's right.........just now, I've done something very terrible to Jun Cheng-tongxue. This is because, um, it's my first time that there's a boy being so close to me, and when I smelled Jun Cheng-tongxue's scent, my head became a little dizzy.......”

As she spoke, Lan Hua's face became red once more, as if she's recollecting the events happening just earlier, demurely explaining onto the reason of why she would be conducting that sort of perversed actions.

Just like as if she had found back both her morals as well as her sense of shame at the same time; this, should then be the attitude that a girl must be having.

”To be confounded by the temptations of my heart onto doing those sort of actions, I'm really very sorry!”

”Mm, mn.”

(TL: agreeing sfx - imagine head nodding in agreement)

Perhaps due to the reason of not having any bodily contact between us, Lan Hua clearly had an appearance of being fervently simmered down, returning back to her normal state. But rather than saying that her expression was that of an inadequately ardent one, it's more of like those appearance after a person had regained back onto their senses, with a face of sheer regret to the point of wanting to just die.........just like me using my hands yesterday to feel terrific for the entire night, this person too also used her hands onto being euphoric for the entire journey huh.

Clutching my jaw, I repeatedly nodded my head.

Towards such an explanation given by her, my indication was that I'm fully able to understand it.

Or it should be said, that I shared the same feelings as well!

Because, to be frank, Lan Hua was just like me, being unable to control onto our malicious desires..........

I suddenly had a feeling of meeting onto my fellow diseased comrade, because just by looking at the motives of this incident, me and Lan Hua were said to be completely the same.

Aaah, I know, it's really very difficult to endure.........there's someone very clearly being plastered onto you, and a person who could resist onto not groping simply doesn't exist at all.

Although it seemed to be a little too immoral to be saying those words after finishing groping the person, but Xue Qing's figure had seemingly no difference to that of a child's already, plus groping a child and whatnot, it shouldn't be considered to be too much, huh..........

Although I've thought about it before within my mind; Why not just push down Xue Qing, just do it with her until daylight, about the issues afterwards let's just place them aside for later on, but in the end I still gritted against that notion. I thought that I was already quite impressive, as Xue Qing didn't really get pushed down at the very least, wasn't it? I didn't do onto any sort of irresponsible human trash-like actions, hmm?

Ahaa, ahaahaahaa.......

(TL: sfx - nervous laughing)

Lan Hua kept lifting up her head and lowering it, continually apologizing to me, with her hair being flung about and turning into a mess.

”Under that sort of situation, a person who's able to endure it simply doesn't exist at all; I carried onto that sort of lucked mentality, which opened up a convenient path for my desires, resulting into the mistake this time. If only my fortitude is to be a little stronger, I'm obviously able to endure that!”

*Pu!* My knee got pierced by an arrow. Unable to support myself, I knelt onto the ground with one knee lying down.

”I actually still even thought of 'It shouldn't be nothing much of a deal for a boy to be groped by a girl', wanting to rely on that sort of excuse onto covering up my own actions, it's really too despicable already!”

*Pu!* Another knee of mine got struck by an arrow, and with a *Pu tong* cry, this time I fully knelt down.

”In the end, I actually still wasn't satisfied yet, still thinking of doing even more overboard actions, it's simply too shameless already! ! !”

*Pu!* The final arrow stabbed onto my heart, causing me critical damage, which made me directly unable to hold up myself and to display out a despairing body-fallen-over posture.

What she's refuting at was to herself, but I was also unknowingly lampooned too at the same time.

Relying upon Lan Hua's 'similar acts' onto decreasing the feelings of guilt that I had, I'm really such a lowest piece of trash.

With the result that ultimately, I still couldn't deceive myself, as I once again understood, that through myself repeatedly trying to find excuses for my behavior, I originally was a piece of trash-like human that only knew how to flee. I instantaneously fell amidst emotions of self loathings.

As expected, this sort of things weren't just able to be resolved with just a simple apology.........ORZ

”Right now, I've already fully reflected upon my mistakes, so, please forgive me! Jun Cheng-tongxue!”

The matter about Lan Hua molesting me, I'm already not so concerned about it anymore, but as for Xue Qing.........as expected, using only fingernails and hair as compensation and whatnot, it's simply too cheap already..........it could even be slated that I've tainted her purity, yet I still was acting like a nobody.

But, wanting me to split up with Lian Bing and have a relationship with Xue Qing.........

Perhaps I would die.

I'm saying the truth, I'll be killed.

It's not a joke when Lian Bing is being pissed off, I'll definitely die a gruesome death.

She had multiple ways onto making me disappear from the surface of this world..........about that point, I have never doubted that at all.

Being able to survive from her hands by sheer luck, it's all due to the occurrence of multiple coincidences, and perhaps it had already used up my accumulated luck for my entire lifetime.

After using up my final strand of luck, what else can I rely on?

Rely on Xue Qing?

To abandon a girl, and to go fall into another girl's embrace thereafter; why does this sort of scenario seem so familiar.........it seemed to be like a certain trash-like human who had the same surname as me who have done this sort of thing before...........

(TL: probably referring to School Days)

Then that means, I'm actually slowly walking down the path of being a human piece of trash? And at my not-so-distant future, what's waiting for me can't actually be a BAD end, right?

I imagined that scenario within my mind for a moment.

Entirety bathed in blood, sporting snowy-white hair along with bloody red-colored pupils, Xue Qing who was shrouded in an appalling atmosphere of killing aura was wielding a dagger and a small blade; Her eye expression evidently already turned darkly sinister, while cloaked in a climate of mania, with a face expression bearing a smile that 'permeates hearts with frosty coldness', Lian Bing's hands grasped a doll which looked just the same as me.........

Confronting each other face-to-face, each respectively having hostility gushing out, with a massacre about to develop.

Was it for the sake of vying for me.........or was it for the sake of disposing me instead?

In any case, the ultimatum ending that awaited me would either be turning into a 'complete corpse' or an 'incomplete corpse', just these two options..........

I'm actually able to imagine out such a realistic scenario, it really made me frightfully terrified..........

Ahhh, my stomach hurts..........

Not receiving my response even after half a day later, Lan Hua used a perplexed tone onto calling out my name.

”Jun Cheng, -tongxue?”

However, I was still drowning amidst my upcoming bleak dark future along with my self-loathing emotions, and was completely unable to extricate out from it.