Chapter 20: A new day had started (1/2)
TL: flarewk
Seeing that sort of expression of Xin Ran's, I nearly opened my mouth instinctively, wanting to blurt out apologetic and compromising words. A habitual thinking that I've been keeping since a long time ago, I'm unable to change it in just a short period of time. Last time, in order not to be hated thoroughly by my meimei, I would always be accustomed to display out a meekly attitude.
But now I can't do that already! If I was still being led around the nose by her, I'll gradually sink into the pits of immorality, and in the end, drown within the emotions of forbidden love, being unable to get ahold of myself. It would only lead to a series of bad endings.
Things weren't that simple from what I've imagined, and it wasn't acted out to be as romantic as in television dramas, for the things to shoulder were simply too much already.
And so I must properly define out the borderlines! Siblings are just only siblings! Although many defense lines of mine had been breached by Xin Ran, and was in extreme high danger status already, but the final threshold must still be held on.
Previously it was in my sleep, about those stuff that I've done to Xin Ran, it's fine since I don't have much memories about them. If I'm awake, and Xin Ran continued to do those acts that she had detailed on earlier...........I cannot guarantee that I'm able to continue resisting.
No matter how you'll put it, I'm still a male, and 'saint mode' would also have its limits.
To let me be like Liu Xi Hui who was imperturbable from lust, it's impossible unless I really had ED.
But the things that happened in the toilet earlier could explain many problems I had already..........Mm, looks like the beastly lust within my heart was way stronger than what I've thought it to be............
”E-even if you make that kind of expression, I won't regress at all! There's no way that I can make concessions for this!”
After Xin Ran looked at me for a while, the curvature on her lips slightly raised upwards, as her expression looked to be way more relaxed.
What exactly happened? Suddenly becoming happy already?
I really don't get a woman's way of thinking at all...........
”It's very different from the usual gege, very assertive.”
”Because previously I completely didn't know that you actually had special feelings towards me, it's more like I thought that you especially hated me. Not calling me 'gege' even once, always disregarding what I say, always showing an attitude of ignoring me...........”
”............Because calling gege face-to-face was very embarrassing. Also.............”
Xin Ran paused, as she tightly clutched her thighs plus pursing her lips, and revealed a shy expression that I've never seen before, saying: ”Umm, seeing gege's agonized face, I felt a little excited.
An S huh!
It's really been guessed out by me!
It really was because of Xin Ran's fetish which was why she displayed out an aloof attitude towards me~!
”Plus, I can't really display a smile, my face expression is more singular. Isn't gege like that too?”
”Ahhh, that's true, we're all affected by Laobà, huh............”
Speaking of which, I seemed to be like that as well, no matter how disturbed my inner heart was, no matter how agitated I was, it won't be shown onto my face. It's like the so-called 'Even if Mt. Tai was to collapse before me, my facial expression still would unchanging'.
Phew, since all the things that needed to be discussed had been discussed, and since the sky was also almost being lit up, I'll just directly get up from bed then.
I walked towards the windows and pulled open the curtains, allowing dawn's rays to shine into the room. Xin Ran instead laid back onto my bed, hugging my blankets as she squinted her eyes, with a look of wanting to go back and lazily sleep once again.
”You wanted to continue on sleeping? Then remember to fold the blankets properly when you wake up later.”
Anyway, I can't sleep at any rate; as firstly, I'm rejecting on me actively proceeding to sleep together with my meimei , and secondly, after knowing about this impactful reality, I had already become wide awake.
Since I had woken up so early, I'll first go on to make breakfast then, and make my set of lunchbox too along the way. After experiencing that Ji Lian Bing canteen incident yesterday, I was planning never to head to the canteen again, as I don't want to be like a monkey within a zoo's cage, being surrounded and gawked at by everyone while eating.
I opened the windows and deeply breathed in a mouthful of fresh air, afterwards forcibly stretching a lazy arm, instantly feeling way more refreshed.
”Gege.”
”Mm? Oh, you're feeling cold, right, I'll close the windows immediately.”
I couldn't open the windows for a long period of time today for ventilation, as Xin Ran still was in the room; it's terrible if she was to catch a cold from it.
”Gege.”
”Mm, what's the matter?”
”Gege.”
”Whut's the matter already..........can't you just say it directly.”
Everytime Xin Ran addressed me as gege, I would be slow to react to it, as her suddenly using this to address me really made me a little unused to it.