Chapter 598: No Regrets (1/2)
”I feel a strange sense of tranquility, but a longing for something unknown is also growing inside my heart. It is as if there is something important that I have forgotten, but every attempt at grasping it just pushes it further away.”
Hei Gou had sensed the worry within Xue Wei's gaze, but even though he knew that this young man was very important to him, he was simply incapable of finding out why, and how deep these feelings ran.
Xue Wei went to Hei Gou's side and sat next to him. He did not look at the other, but instead gazed into the dark sky above and sighed gently.
”Life is unpredictable. Although neither of us are old, we have already experienced many things. I grew up thinking that I was a human, and my entire childhood focused on the enmity with the fierce and primordial beasts.
”I thought that I could become a hero and save humanity. I believed that only if I could carve my name into the history books as a savior of humanity would I have lived a worthy life.
”Later, I realized that I was not purely human, and due to the unbalanced Sovereign Beast Blood in my body, many thoughts were chaotic and contradicting. The constant worry and fear about who I was and what I was almost swallowed my reason, but I managed to keep sane and stay alive due to you and the rest of our friends.
”Although we are not old, I have already realized that my childhood dreams were useless. I do not live for anyone else, nor do I need the world to recognize me as a hero or to have expectations from me.
”The current situation in this world is not my problem. Lan is the one in control of this world, and his responsibility is that the world itself will not suffer.
”At the same time, it is the residents themselves that have to ensure that their lives are worth living. We face danger again and again. Every time we enter a battle, it is uncertain if we will die or live, but if we want to live, someone else will have to die, and one day, our luck and abilities will no longer be enough.
”After considering my current life and all these hidden secrets I have reached a new clarity in life. I am not in control of when I will die, nor do I know what the world will think of me, but these things are not actually important.
”When the day of my death arrives, I wish to be able to look back at my life and think that it was not such a bad life. I wish to die with no regrets while working towards my own dreams. I do not need others to approve of me or my actions, all that matters is that I live with no regrets.”
Xue Wei had been thinking about many things after his bloodline had become stable. He had understood many things, and knew that the danger he faced was much more severe than he had been able to guess previously.