194 Chara (1/2)
*Chara's POV*
My mother told me to always smile. Why? Well, she said that if you smile, people will also smile back at you. She said that it's contagious that it makes people feel at ease and happy for a moment. That's why I always smile. That was when I was still a kid and I still remember that time clearly in my mind. I'm not so sure what my age was but I'm so happy because my mother and father are always with me. I've felt the best love I could ever have. I thought that our happiness would never end but... that's what I thought.
One night, I felt too much pain in my head. At first, I thought it was just a headache but the pain suddenly became worse. I cried in pain. My shout woke up my parents and they rushed me to the hospital after asking me what's wrong.
After a couple of tests, I heard they said that there's nothing wrong with me. My mother saw my suffering and tears fell from her cheeks. The pain still didn't go away, pain that I couldn't stand anymore. Then, I fell asleep without me noticing.
I woke up in the morning and the pain in my head was gone. I'm so happy but when I opened my eyes, it's all blur... I tried to rub my eyes to check if there's something but I still can't see clearly. That's the time I panicked. I felt a warm hug from nowhere. Even with my eyes can't see clearly, I know that it was my mother. She's the only one who can hug me this warm.
She asked me what's wrong again and this time, I told her that I can't see clearly. So once again, we ran some tests but they said again that there's nothing wrong with my eyes. I heard my mother argue with the doctor because they are paying a lot of money for the tests but they can't find anything. We are not rich so money is really an important matter.
My dad held my hand. He told me that whatever happens, they will never leave me because they love me so much that they would do anything for me, a love that no one can ever give me but them. But day after day, my eyesight is not getting good and my body started to get weaker for some reason. It's getting worse and worse every day so they decided to confine me in the hospital. My father worked really hard and my mother did her best to borrow money for the hospital bills and other expenses but the doctor still can't find what's wrong with me. Every night before I go to sleep, my mother always smiles at me. I can still see it even with my poor eyesight and weak body. She told me not to give up. She told me that I just need to smile. So I did, pretended to be asleep but I know my mother cries every night. The most painful is when you know that you're the reason why your loved ones suffer.
”Mom? Where's Dad? I haven't heard of him for a while now.” Another gloomy morning comes, my mother is helping me eat food.
”He's working really hard for us. So get stronger, ok?” My mother replied but she's having a hard time talking. It feels like she's trying to suppress her feelings.
”Why don't we go on the rooftop and have fresh air. You need to have an exercise from time to time.”
”But I'm not allowed to walk around because I'm too weak and I can't move at all,” I would love to, but I'm too weak.
”No worries. I'll just carry you. Let's go, my daughter.” She held my hands. I can't see it but I know that she tried to smile. She's really doing her best not to cry.
My mother carried me to her back and we finally reached the rooftop. It's cold but refreshing. It's been a while since I felt this.
”Mom? Are you ok?” I asked her because she didn't say even a single word while carrying me.
”Yes, my daughter. Just remember, your father and I will always love you. You will always be our most precious daughter.” She said to me with all her love.
”Mam. Please stay away from the ledge. It's too dangerous.” I heard a voice not that far from here. What ledge?
”WAIIIIIIT! STOOOOOOP!” The man suddenly shouted. That time, I felt like I'm falling with my mother. I knew what's happening but I guess... this is the end for us. I'm happy that I'm with my mother till the end...
I can never see my mother smile again...
*BAAAAAAAAAM!*..