19 She has something that you donst have (2/2)
”Zenia ..... can I have a word with you . ” Zenia looked at him with sad eyes and said .
”Zen ..Sure but . Aren't you busy today ?”
”I didn't feel like doing any work . I wanted to talk to you ”
”Oh really ! That's bizarre . Usually it's me who has always initiated a conversation but today it's different . So very unlike you . ”She remarked .
”I know . ” He sits beside her on a chair .
”Something has changed about you Zen no ... not just something but a lot of things ... I ...I wonder why . There is no doubt you changed completely 3 years ago . It was as if I lost you . But now I feel you are going back to the Zen I knew . To the person you were before you underwent that strange transformation ”
”Transformation? I changed ? I'm afraid I don't get you Zenia ”
”Yes . You would never understand . So no use breaking your head on that . Forget what I just said . Anyways what did you want to talk about ? ”
”Well ... I ...”
”It's alright . I know you won't make any sense because you can't open up to people . I know exactly what you want to say . ”
”You know ? ”
”It's fine . You want to marry her then go ahead . I'm sorry to interfere . It's your decision and I'll respect that . Deep in my heart I know if I force you I would never be able to achieve true happiness and the happiness I desire but just tell me this one thing... what did you find in her that you don't find in me Zen ? What's that piqued your interest in her and I lacked ? Was it the colour of her hair if that was the case then I would have bleached my hair or dyed it to the same colour until I die . Honestly I would do it !” Zen smiled .
”No.... I'm afraid it's not her hair . To be honest I don't know myself Zenia . I really don't know but I feel she has something that you don't have . That she can give me something you can never give . Not just you but any other woman in this world ”
”And what is that something she had and I lack Zen . ”
”I'm sorry I don't know Zenia . ” He looks down as tears keep wetting her face .
”Don't give me that sad look . You are very honest Zen and that makes me fall in love with you even more ! May be I understand you now..... . She has changed you and that's more than enough for me . She brought that sincere smile on your face when I strived to get it all these years so I guess she is important”
Zen raised his eyes bewildered at her words .
” All I want is for you to be happy. If that girl is your happiness then I have no right to take that happiness from you but the fact I'm your lovely sister won't change okay ? PROMISE me !”
”I promise . It won't . ” He takes her hand in his with a promising look in his eyes . Zenia smiles . She leaves his hand .
”I'll go pack up then . I'll be leaving tomorrow . ”
”Tomorrow ? But why ? Didn't you want to see Erwin ?”
”Oh who knows when that jerk would show up . He never fails with his surprise entries . I have something to do back home . Don't worry I'll come here very soon ”
”Sure then . As you wish . Thank you Zenia ”
”For what ? ” She lets out a chuckle . ” Since when have you become so modest . Lol if you really have changed then I guess I'm no longer in love with you as I loved the cool Zen you were not the one who thanks and apologises. Anyways I'll get some sleep I'm tired ... ” She turns around pressing her lips together . She was sad . She tried her best to control those tears so that they won't break out of their realm and never stop flowing . Zen watched her back as she slept . He switched the lights off and left the room closing the door .
”I'm sure you will find someone much much better than me Zenia who would love you immensely! ” He murmured and left .
”I will never find someone like you Zen . Never ...” She said to herself with words barely coming out of her throat as she cried and cried all night long . Alisha gazed the stars from the balcony of her room wondering about the day's events . Though Zen tried to make Zenia understand what their relationship was he was himself unaware of his true feelings for Alisha . He had to spend his entire life with her but was he even ready for it ?