38 There Are Still People Who Love You (1/2)
NOTE: Please play ”Too Much Too Ask (Acoustic)” by Niall Horan to get the full effect of the chapter!
Yao Yan made a pushing action with her hand, moving all the glass to the side and frantically ran up to Qiu Yue.
”What are you doing!? Qiu Yue!”
She immediately sat Qiu Yue down and with a first aid box that seemed to appear out of nowhere, bandaged her hand, first cleaning the wounds and using the mysterious force to remove the glass shards.
Seeing Qiu Yue looked at her as if she hadn't done anything, Yao Yan really felt frustrated.
”How can you do this, why do you behave like this?”
It seemed like Qiu Yue was listening this time, as she looked at Yao Yan. But right now, Yao Yan felt very frustrated, so how could she stop there?
”You told me that I had to look for the beauty in life. That life was always worth living! That no matter what we shouldn't ever give up on it, that it was a gift!”
”What are you doing now? Acting like this, ignoring everything and everyone!”
”Enough!”
Qiu Yue felt tears clogging her throat again.
”What do you know? No matter how I lived. No matter what happened, no matter who hated me, it didn't matter. Even if I didn't have a physical home, I didn't care, because I thought I carried home with me, in my heart!”
”I let that person into my heart, Huo Zi Feng was home to me! After losing that... how do I go on? Why should I?!”
”You- did you ever think about others who love you? Did you?!”
Qiu Yue felt even more upset listening to Yao Yan. She knew that what she was saying was right, she knew that she'd left people behind, brushed their concern aside. But she couldn't see anything else, she didn't want to see anything else.
She stood up, barely standing up straight as her head started spinning again, and started to leave. Seeing her like this, Yao Yan pushed Qiu Yue back down.
”No. Just stay. Rest for now. Please.”
Although Qiu Yue wanted to resist, the effects of the medicine were finally hitting her and she couldn't stand up again.
Just like that, both feeling frustrated and upset, Qiu Yue and Yao Yan went to sleep.
In the middle of the night, Yao Yan woke up to check on Qiu Yue and sighed in relief seeing her still asleep.
Yao Yan meant what she had said. She knew what losing Huo Zi Feng meant for Qiu Yue, but why was it that even though she was right here, it didn't matter?
Perhaps Yao Yan couldn't see that even though Qiu Yue herself didn't realize it right now, without Yao Yan being there, she may have truly given up on life.
Waking up early in the morning, Qiu Yue felt slightly better, her head was no longer pounding but she still felt as though she had been hit by a truck. Sticking her head out slightly to peek inside the guest bedroom, she found Yao Yan fast asleep.
Yao Yan had probably been checking on her through the night, combined with the fatigue of the journey it was not surprising that she had fallen dead asleep.
Qiu Yue quietly slipped onto something more comfortable and walked to the only place she knew for now, the idol agency. Funnily enough, she still hadn't read anything about this world or what its story was but that was because Qiu Yue herself had no purpose, her body had automatically walked to the practice room.
This time around though, Qiu Yue was a bit more alert, it seemed like the majority of the other trainees and even official idols were very careful around her. Even though their eyes clearly showed that they were full of hatred and disgust, on the surface they all shamelessly kept flattering her.
Qiu Yue blatantly ignored them all and walked away, she didn't care about anything right now.
Most of the idols sneered at her.
”Who does she think she is? All she has is her status!”
”Without her parents, she'd be next to dirt.”
(E/N: ”dirt” You're dirt! XD so she's trash? Okay, nvm me likey)
One of the ladies said as soon as Qiu Yue disappeared from view, mirroring the inner feelings of others.
Qiu Yue sat down in the corner of the practice room that had been given to her, it was a practice room meant only for Xiang Qiu Yue; her private practice room.
On one side was a huge glass wall, so dancers could see their moves. Seeing herself in the mirror Qiu Yue felt shocked. She looked so... tired.
Her eyes looked dead and there were tear streaks on her face, her skin was pale and she had dark circles under her eyes that were puffy. Even her hands were bandaged. The girl in the mirror looked similar to how Qiu Yue had looked once upon a time when she'd thought that she'd lost everything. That time, in her own original world, Qiu Yue had felt like she could never be happy again, but slowly, meeting Zi Feng, Yan Yan, Meng Hui, Zhou Jia... all of them had shown her how beautiful the world could be, the beauty she'd been hoping for, no matter how bad things got.
But how was she supposed to do so now? How was she supposed to do all that... when this time she knew that she could never love anyone as she had loved him.
Qiu Yue didn't understand why, but she felt like singing all of a sudden. Perhaps it was because that was what the original owner of this body did when she felt sad.
”Waiting here for someone,
Only yesterday, we were on the run
You smile back at me and your face lit up the sun
Now I'm waiting here for someone.”
”My shadow's dancing
Without you for the first time
My heart is hoping
You'll walk right in tonight”
”Someone's moving outside
The lights come on and down the drive
I forget you're not here when I close my eyes”
”My shadow's dancing
Without you for the first time
My heart is hoping
You'll walk right in tonight”
”It's all I'm asking
Is it too much to ask?
It's all I'm asking