58 Confused (2/2)

He couldn't even explain himself. How could he? When his actions and their result were staring him in the face?

The emperor's mouth twisted in a wry, wretched smile. He countered, ”Maybe that is really what am worth. Only unquestionable loyalty but not a shred of trust. Is that the reason why...” His Majesty stopped his words abruptly and shook his head.

His Majesty walked further away from Ning Fu and lifted his hand in the universal sign of shooing someone away and left him with just the back view of a man who seemed lonely and heartbroken.

Ning Fu felt deeply ashamed and remorseful in his heart. He watched helplessly as the monarch walked away with slumped shoulders and a depressed air because of his thoughtless actions.

He couldn't even say that the other person had misunderstood him. He himself was the one who had misjudged the monarch.

His Majesty had clearly shown through his actions that he believed in governance and not senseless killings.

How could he have been so idiotic so as to paint His Majesty with the same brush as other monarchs?

Hadn't His Majesty already shown that he was different from his predecessors with his first edict and his subsequent actions?

It was a bitter pill to swallow that he himself wasn't as open-minded as he touted himself to be.

Meanwhile, Su Li felt that she had gone insane for even entertaining the ridiculous thought.

When she had heard those familiar words, for a few seconds she had felt that it wasn't Unit Commander Ning Fu standing in front of her, she had the illusion that it was the person who had stood behind her and protected her from all internal and external threats in the last world?

It was completely preposterous and ludicrous.

Her lower lip trembled but she bit it, to try and conceal the pain and loneliness. Those emotions should be tucked away in her heart. She couldn't afford to let anyone catch onto any of her weaknesses in this harsh environment. She sighed to herself miserably and left for her quarters. Another shiver wracked her frame.

How could that person follow her into this world?

She herself was bound to a system due to which she was residing in someone's body.

How would she be able to see or meet him again?

She couldn't even bring herself to say his name and felt truly pathetic. She had been brought to new lows because of the memories of a person whom she might never see or hear from again.

But what could she do? Her heart didn't seem to listen to her and the pain was still too raw for her to recall and reminiscence about the happy times she had spent with that person.

Su Li doesn't want to cry because tears are a means of letting your pain go.

She wants to turn everything about that person into a hard, dense pebble to be locked away in her heart.

She is afraid.

Afraid that crying might just sweep away her memories of the time spent with that person like a clean slate and dull the pain.

She doesn't want that.

Doesn't want to forget.

Sometimes she tries to tell herself that this whole thing is a nightmare.

That she is still in that world.

That she'll open her eyes and find that person just a call away but it's all futile.

She knows that she has done a lot of lying to herself when it comes to the person she inadvertently fell in love with.

Su Li also felt furious at herself for losing her composure in front of a courtier. She had lost all her dignity as the monarch of a country by acting in such a discourteous way.

There is at least a consolation that the other person wouldn't gossip about her loss of decorum.

At that last thought, His Majesty entered his rooms and clicked the door shut.

That night two people wallowed in painful dreams and it was a long night for both of them.