Chapter 77 - Changes in her heart (5) (1/2)
April was astounded. Listening to Colm's words, it brought several emotions into her heart. Emotions that she didn't know existed in her.
”WHAT RIGHT DO YOU HAVE?!” She yelled on top of her lungs. Shocked, Alex turned around to look at her.
”I NEVER ASKED FOR THIS! I never asked for anyone to worry about my own life! For once, I wanted to go forward with what I what!
I am tired of all your pity glares and your silent sighs! I never regretted the day that I let you escape the warehouse. Colm, you will always have a special place in my heart but that doesn't mean that you can decide my future!
I fell in love with a married man, so what? You can never dictate who your heart falls for! But you can definitely decide if you wish to pursue it or not. I, April, decided to pursue this difficult road.
I love him and that's what I decided! So what if they call me a Mistress? So what if I'm fighting for a losing battle? So what if I end up getting hurt? At least I tried. I tried to fight for what I want. For once, I want to fight for my own happiness.
Call me naive, I don't give a shit! If Alex only wanted me as a rebound, fine! But you don't have the right to threaten me! I know what I am doing. The same thing that I know what will happen to me, once I stayed on that warehouse.
Colm, you are my dearest friend. You are like my closest relative, a brother I never had. But sorry, that's all I could give. Even if I wanted to change it, I can't. My heart screams Alex's name. Despite the hurt and pain that I'm suffering now, I still want to be with him.
I want to be a part of his life, as he will be part of mine. I didn't want to hurt you nor his wife, I never wanted to hurt anybody. I was completely fine being with myself and my son. Yet it happened, life happened and we fell in love with each other.
No matter what happens from now on, it doesn't concern you anymore. Even though I never wish for all of this to happen, I now want it! Even if I end up losing myself, This is a choice that I want to make.
I'm sorry..” April covered her face with both of her hands. The entire time that she spoke, her body was trembling and her tears endlessly fell on her face.