Chapter 29 - Her First Love (2) (1/2)

”Alex, I Love You.”

Alex stiffened. He had never been confessed before. It was him that confessed to his wife. He was his first love and he had never flirted with anyone before her.

Right now, his heart was beating fast. He didn't know that being confessed to, could make him feel this happy.

”April, can you look at me?” Alex lifted her chin up, he wanted to see her eyes. It makes a big difference, if she was looking at him.

April opened her eyes. Alex's blue eyes wasn't condemning her, instead he looked at her like he wanted to hear it again.

”I have always loved you, Alex.” April confessed her feelings. It was much easier now.

Alex's heart grew warm, he smiled at her. ”When did you start loving me?”

April blushed. ”When we first met. In the Smith's living room.”

Love at first sight, Alex thought. How old was she then? 15? 16? While he was around 22? At that time, he was still dating Francesca. God knew how long it took him to convince his wife to marry him. Even though they were together since Highschool, they didn't got married till they were 24. It might still look too young to marry. At that time, he was sure that she was the one.

”Why didn't you tell me?” He softly asked. He knew how hard it must've been for her to confess. Even now that they had crossed a line, that shouldn't be crossed.

”How could I? I'm even more mentally unstable back then. I was in and out of rehab and you were perfectly happy with your girlfriend back then. Why should I try to butt in? I would never want you to be unhappy.” April looked down, she couldn't look at Alex anymore. She was too embarrassed with her own words.

Alex held a firm gripped on her chin, he wasn't going to let her escape this time. It was too late for that. ”April, look at me.” He commanded.

April gulped, her eyes looked at his again. This time, she felt like her insides was melting.

”All this time, you really didn't hated me?” Alex still couldn't believe it. He thought that April was just saying those words to him earlier today.

”How could I? You were like the Sun to me. Everytime I secretly look at you, you were smiling happily. Your world was colorful than mine. Sometimes it made me wish, to be a part of that world”. A tear fell down on her cheeks. What she had said was true.

Alex's world was indeed colorful. He had everything he wanted. Family, Friends and a Lover. He was surrounded by mesmerizing people. He had never faced any hardsh.i.p.s. He never had nightmares nor terrible demons inside his head. April used to envy him and yet loved him at the same time.

Unlike April, her demons was her bestfriends. They didn't want to leave her, they were her companions in life.

Alex wiped away her tears. He pulled April into his arms and patted her back.

”I'm sorry for not noticing baby. Don't worry, I'm here now. You may wish to be a part of my world, but I'd rather be part of yours. Together with our son, we will slowly build our own family.” He kissed her hair. Her confession brought new realization on his head. He needed time to think this through. Now that he knew how being loved supposed to feel like, he didn't want to let it go.

”But your wife?” April buried her face in his chest. Even if it hurts, she needed to address this issue. She didn't like being a Mistress. She didn't want to be the third wheel.