Chapter 227 I Am Officer Astria 1 (2/2)

Inna coughed again, trying to sort out her thoughts and words.

”So, yeah, I ended up finishing the whole season that they released in bulk. And I fell in love with how strong, courageous, and outspoken she was. She was the opposite of me at that time. And I envied that. I wanted to be the opposite of me too… And so, I copied her.”

”Like a child wanting to become her most famous idol, I repeatedly watched every video she was featured in, whether it be about the show or just the actress's interviews. Then, I copied her. I copied the character 'Officer Astria' from the way she walked to the way she would eat. I even copied her look, her tone, her manners, and even the way she held the gun.”

”But back then, what I first mastered was the way she talked and held the gun. It was fairly simple. Too simple that it soon quickly became a habit. And that habit ended up becoming a big part of my life.”

Inna chuckled.

”It's pretty obvious now, how she talks. I do it all the time... The swearing. She swears left and right. She swears to reflect anger. She swears to reflect sadness. And she swears to reflect happiness. There is no occasion at all where she couldn't say any curse. And for me, that was the very core of her charm and personality. Despite her cutesy and innocent appearance, once she swears, she suddenly seems tough and rough. Though there were times where she seemed more to be the villain than the hero, the cussing was her way to express her emotions in their true rawness. And for me who always had trouble showing what I truly think or feel because of how timid I was, it was a godsend. I found it as a great medium to release my emotions without having to think deeply about it.”

”And so, once I was able to master the art of cursing, I then tried to imitate one more thing that somehow was the other foundation of Officer Astria's whole tough and fearless persona.”

”The fact that she was an officer.”

Without knowing, Inna smiled as she recalled her ridiculousness during those days.

”At first, I was perplexed. I wanted to be tough and fearless so bad but how can I possibly imitate being an officer when I was just an eight-year-old child? With that problem, I rewatched the series again and reached to the conclusion that I should learn how to use a gun. But the kind of gun that was fit to be practiced upon... A water gun.”

”It was a fun week, I'd say. The happiest I've been ever since. I'd stay in our backyard all day, training. And I was covered in mud nearly every single day from me trying to imitate some moves she made in her action scenes wherein she did great tricks with the guns. My nanny at that time was probably the most stressed one out of all the nannies that worked with me in the past. Well, I couldn't blame her though. After all, I really changed so much after I saw that show.”

”I was no longer the timid child who would have trouble speaking without having a near nervous breakdown. I was no longer the kind of child that would try to endure things without even a sound of complaint. I was no longer that child that would give up easily.”

”Because I was no longer Inna Loven-- Ingrid. I was no longer I-Ingrid.”

Swiftly correcting her mistake, Inna's smile dimmed down a little when she realized that she almost said her real name. But Raghnall didn't seem to notice as he just kept staring at their connected hands while he listened.

”I was no longer all that. Back then, I proclaimed myself to be the new Officer Astria, the Bearer of Justice. But then, I realized as well that if I were to truly be Officer Astria, I needed to live without fear and to settle my issues head-on. After all, it's my duty to cut the root of injustice!”

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Inna proclaimed sternly before laughing at her foolish self.

”And so, on the next day, equipped with my trusty water gun and my new cursing skills, I told my parents that I was ready to take on the school.”