Chapter 21 (2/2)

Why was she associated herself with such bastards……, no, such people, was a question Vivian would never understand, and all she could do was accept the differences between her and Carden. Maybe she liked bada*ses.

Carden said she had started to sincerely love Duke Biron from some point in time. It wasn’t something that was imaginable from the current situation, but Duke had also sworn eternal love as well. However, ever since she’d become involved with the Emperor, everything had started to change little by little.

She wasn’t trying to quantify who did more right and wrong between the couple. However, the two seemed to have already crossed a river that shouldn’t have been crossed, and the deepened emotions seemed to only become hopelessly complicated.

Just break up.

The words she had been unable to say at the time had come up to her throat.

It would become chaotic if one applied the theories of novels to reality. This was what Vivian had realized.

There is nothing left in this world when you hide your feelings.

She understood that it was painful to not be able to sufficiently express your affection when the other person had been able to express her affection fully. If one didn’t say how much they loved their beloved, no matter how much you shouted your love after their relationship had become twisted, they would not hear it. There was nothing worse than a relationship where love only hurt them more separation.

Her relationship with Ray was of passing acquaintances – they did not ask about each other, let alone whisper their affections towards each other. However, it would be disappointing to just become strangers, and she had decided it would be better to passionately thrust herself onto him even if she was rejected.

I don’t even wish to be the protagonist. But I don’t want to be remembered as extra 1 by Ray.

Vivian had a shameless personality that didn’t have even a touch of shyness, but she was still the type of person to never reveal her feelings in front of the person she liked. It was a result of being single for so long and thought that it was pointless because of her chastity oath.