Vol 1 Chapter 2 (2/2)
Even I think it was ato say, but I can't deny that it improved my spirits
<what a=”” person!=”” really,=”” what=”” a=”” person=”” you=”” are!=””>
What I sense from that voice is complete scorn I start to reconsider
<sole=”” all=”” your=”” life,=”” no=”” mistake!=”” you=”” treacherous,=”” spiteful,=”” ill-natured=”” est=”” bitch!=””>
”what, did you say?!”
The fangs of self-reflection instantly vanish, and the superseding anger
Lead me to a life-or-death decision----
”I'll make a boiled octopus out of you!”
My destination is, the bathroom
”ah”
could this be, that world?
I see a field of flowers
”Tazusa?”
ahh, it seems it was the pattern on my comforter
”Tazusa, are you awake now?”
”I guess I'm alive”
I' on my bed Next to me are Coach Takashi+, is a poster of a straw-hatted comic hero that I like
<you big=”” idiot=””>
At that voice echoing in h
If I heat uy out So thinking, I soaked in 46°C hot water for a long time but, in the end, it seems it had no effect
I held on until I thought I would die, but ahh, the heartlessness of it all
”Tazusa It's alright Just rest and don't worry about anything”
Turning aze back, on Coach's face I see the tolerant srasped the troubles of his student
for a second time, I take a deep breath
”Let me say this”
”It's alright, so”
”Be quiet and listen”
perhaps because all the blood rushed to ly inarticulate Even as I a to repeatedly explain that I am sane, I cut Coach off with both hands
For ht of as the skater who mentally snapped because of Olympics pretensions That alone I cannot abide
”All of my words and actions these past 2, 3 days have a reason I can't explain right now, but I will someday Coach, you will absolutely come to understand I am completely normal”
”Though I don't think there's anything nor yourself in the bathroom of the peaceful Takashi+ma house” (!)
well, I didn't particularly think I needed this brat worrying about me
”And in your school swimsuit, too Well, fro to hide her scraashboard-like body, I guess you've grown up a little”
”Now, Youko”
Since y has evaporated, it is Coach who ends up reining her in
”So, what then? Are you saying that your perfect exaical reason behind it?”
”Yes”
Coach presses his face up to my nose
”Now listen, Tazusa With mental illnesses, self-awareness of symptoms”
”Coach!”
Fiercely raising th into my voice
”See here Whether it be the Olyreat Tazusa would never lose to the pressure You should know that”
if this were a drama, at this point the ive in, that's hoould develop
I had thought those words would be a trump card, as it were, but it seems I was mistaken It takes a full 2 hours after this to shake off Coach's questioning Moreover, I am ordered to rest in bed until tomorrow
Day 4 of being possessed by Pete
Finally able toin my abdo paper There, in part of the sports column, I see familiar names
Figure skating, Director Mishi+ro, shi+tou Kyouko, and, myself, Sakurano Tazusa
---Concerning the prospects of shi+tou and Sakurano, the two of wholes representative at the Turin Olympics: the federation's director, Ms Mishi+ro, is of the opinion that, if a difference between the two skaters becomes apparent by the end of the Grand Prix Series, theyuntil the National Championshi+ps---is what it says
The Grand Prix Series consists of a total of 6 competitions
For me, Skate America and the NHK Trophy which is held in japan shi+tou will appear in the German competition and also the NHK Trophy
In each co from first place At the end of the 6 competitions, the 6 people who have the ht to participate in the comeptition known as the Grand Prix Final
But I co 0 points Even if I win the NHK Trophy, I have basically no hope ofit to the Final In contrast, shi+tou has already twice in the pastof the world's top 6 And it seems ithin the realm of possibility this time, too
Guessing from how quite a bit of space is devoted to Director Mishi+ro's statements, my and shi+tou Kyouko's battle ined
I hear quiet footsteps descending the stairs
”Good , idiot elder sister”
My cheeky brat of a 9 year old sister sits down across fro her eyes
”Good ht this early in the ?”
since yesterday, I have entered a cold war situation with this perverted ghost But if I yell at hiain
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”----ta (x2)!”
I shriek repeatedly
I'd intentionally hit ht In order to shut this ghost up
After overcolances In particular,her head sadly, and shrugging her shoulders what a skillful child
<that hurt!=””>
The protest echoes inme simple-minded one more blow!
”Ai (x2)!”
The pain this tis tears to my eyes, but Pete's moan soothes me
<get a=”” grip!=”” you=”” shttank=”” woman!=””>
”----gh!”
Just nohat did he?
My eyes roll from the shock
”what tank?”
<it see=””>
”Shttank woman, is it----?!”
Due to e, my fists rattle the dishes on the table as I leap towith my behind topples over
”I'll kill you! I'll crush you!”
Youko, who's facingby theerator door----
”Don't stop me! Coach!”
”Please stop, Tazusa! If you want to enter an eating competition, I'll let you!”
”Let me do thissssssss----!”
Coach's desperate restraining controlled the spas patient
That's what I heard afterwards
By the ti from unheard-of pressure
Since that nightain by this vulgar ghost The final door is just barely sealed by the stubbornness of uardian deity
But, when this is released, there's no guarantee I won't crument is left
”Uugh!”
I feel a pressure in my abdomen, accoer If I were to count, it'd be just about 5 days During which I've held back all solid waste It certainly breaks my previous lifeti!
I've never in my life experienced constipation like this Of course My beautiful self----
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This ti
I suddenly want to cry I've long gone beyond what's pitiful
”I can't take this anymore kwah!”
I press my stomach with both hands Or should I say, I calm it
<i beg=”” you,=”” tazusa!=”” i'm=”” at=”” my=”” limit!=””>
”Why are you at your limit?! Besides, I've told you countless times”
<beauties do=”” not=”” crp=”” i=”” got=”” it!=”” i=”” got=”” it,=”” so=”” please=”” get=”” to=”” the=”” bathroom!=””>
”For what purpose?”
<isn't it=”” obvious!=”” to=”” crp!=””>
it seeicality At least I've e of breakdown
Moreover
”Perchance did you eat so?”
Though I wouldn't know It see
”Uugh, ah!”
a 5-car Siberian super-express train!
Impossible, absolutely impossible! Whatever barricade is put up, it can't stop me
<oi, plea-=”” ahh,=”” i'm=”” done=”” for!=””>
Both feet pounding the floor, I make a dash
”What is it? What is my idiot sister up to this time?”
Youko sticks her head out of her bedrooitated sister with a forehead covered in sweat, even Youko is rendered speechless
While knowing the consequences, I convert the last of y, and finally
Having broken through the best of rab the MD Walkman on my desk, put on the headphones, and set it to full volu aside the dumbfounded Youko, I dash from my roo down my underwear at the same time
I abandon nificent strains of Beethoven's 9th Symphony, 4th movement, the Ode to Joy
I release it all----
”this is the worst”
once I realize that ive voice to it again
”Really the worst All of this”
It see aphasia fro like that
Only, even though the perforotten to take off my headphones, and I remain seated, half-dazed, on the toilet
Although the accumulation of about 5 days is now on the other side, the cruel memories are not washed away
I shake my head 2, 3 times and nonchalantly stand up Since the moment of breakdown, easily 15 minutes have passed
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As if addressing a sleeping tyrant, Pete cautiously breaks in
”What now?”
<just i=”” was=”” wondering,=”” is=”” it=”” alright=”” not=”” to=”” put=”” on=”” your=”” underwear=””>
”----gh!”
suddenly enraged, I head straight for the refrigerator I fill my stomach with tomatoes
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