Chapter 677 - Her Decision (1/2)

Sayuri cried then, and the intense sadness she was exhibiting made Kyle so angry and agitated that he got up. He started walking away and pacing the room.

He wasn't angry at her.

He was angry at himself.

Every single word that she said pierced him deeply, especially the last sentence. She was right. He could not demand this of her, for it was too much. The pregnancy was unexpected, but it wasn't unwanted.

He should not ruin her life just because of it.

He understood her completely.

How could he not, when his own marriage was like an empty shell as well. No conflicts, nothing but no love. It hurt. It would probably be worse for Sayuri, for he could fuck her, but not love her. How does it feel, each time they did it, she knew that he only wanted her body but could never give her his heart?

That was horrible.

She deserved someone who could love her and treat her properly as a wife.

Not him.

He, who could not love at all. If he could, wouldn't he have fallen for her already?

Why couldn't he?

He was so frustrated at himself that he punched the wall. The pain felt good even though the pain in his heart was far more than the one on his hand. Still, he did it again. The sound reverted in the room and there was a small hiccup behind him, bringing him back to his senses.

He turned, to see the tear-stained face of Sayuri, staring at him with sadness.

Intense regret filled him immediately.

He rushed over and kneeled down, truly contrite as he looked up at her. He wiped her tears, running his thumbs under her eyes and then sighed deeply.

”I'm sorry,” he said softly and gently, taking her hand and laying his forehead on it, ”I'm so sorry. You're right. I'm being selfish.”

Then he looked up at her again, ”But please, at least … at least until you find someone, stay with me? Let me take care of you and of our baby. Let me be by your side as our baby grows up. I will explain things to him, or her, about us. That no matter what, he is loved by us both.”

”I'll … I'll slowly distance myself as he grows older so that he gets used to it,” Kyle said softly, ”You go on dates, see people and I'll fully support it and how it to him. Let him get used to seeing that and accepting that. So that .. that when .. when you eventually marry, he will have the best of both worlds.”

”A complete family that loves him,” Kyle continued despite how his heart was twisted in pain as he said it, ”And a biological father that will always be there for him.”

”Stay with you?” Sayuri asked.

”Live together,” Kyle clarified, ”Co-habitate like roommates.”

”What will people think?”

”Who gives a damn what other people think?” Kyle hissed, ”As long as you agree to live with me, I'll make sure any unsavory remarks about you will die.”

Luckily, Country Tz isn't like Country M, where living together would have been a stain on Sayuri's reputation if he didn't marry her. The fact that she's pregnant would have made it worse.

Here, however, people were of a different view as most couples live together before marriage.