Chapter 491 - Ali : Please, Dont ... (1/2)

Sophia felt very conflicted right now.

The more she learned about Ali's religion, the more she felt torn.

It did not help that she was beginning to see that Ali was becoming more … how does she say it? Less religious? No, that's not it. However, she noted that the things he was not supposed to do, he was doing more now.

It was all because of her.

He would hold her more often. Kiss her hands more often. Soon, it 'graduated' to kissing her cheek. She suspected that it might even become kissing her lips.

She remembered the first kiss they had shared and her face blushed. Despite that being their first kiss, it had been intense. And he had been racked with guilt afterwards.

Yet now, it seemed like he was justifying whatever he was doing?

Accepting the sin because he couldn't let her go?

That wasn't right.

She didn't like that.

She didn't want to be the reason why he would lose his way. Would he lose his way? Would this just be the impetus that makes him question his Faith?

Sophia shuddered.

She couldn't have that. She couldn't live with that guilt if that was so.

But that did not mean she was willing to accept his Faith just because she wanted to 'save' him.

He never asked her directly what were her thoughts, or how she felt - most likely because he did not want to pressure her. Yet, at the same time, she suspected that he was afraid of what she might say.

Did she believe?

She was beginning to.

She was beginning to see things in a different perspective and the concept of a 'Higher Being' became much more plausible. It was as if the moment she accepted the possibility, the door was open.

Everything seemed different.

Every action, every result.

When she stopped questioning things like 'If there is a God, then why is there famine?' and looked at it from a different perspective … she felt enlightened.

Why do humans like to put blame? Or expect some sort of miracle? Or …

Sophia shook her head.

It was difficult, truth be told.

Too many things going on in her mind.

One thing for sure, though.

The existence of God is one thing that she has begun to accept … but this did not necessarily mean she accepted Ali's faith.

Not that she was rejecting it, but how sure was she that it was the one for her?

There were so many religions out there, not to mention beliefs as well. There are 'major' religions such as Islam and Christianity. But that was not all.

There are also Bahá'í, Buddhism, Confucianism, Druze, Gnosticism, Hinduism, Jainism, Judaism, Rastafarianism, Shinto, Sikhism, Zoroastrianism, and not to mention the various religions from Country Af, and the Indigenous religions of Country AS.*

Heck, there was even the following now of Scientology - though she didn't really feel that was a 'religion'.

The bottom line was …

How was she to tell Ali that she wasn't sure about embracing his Faith?