Chapter 225 Figuring Things Ou (2/2)

She still hadn't quite settled the fear in her heart that her son was gay. It wasn't because of the fact that he would not be continuing the Smith line - though she would be lying to say that it wasn't a factor. It just wasn't the main factor.

It wasn't that Delilah was homophobic either. Delilah would accept him even if he did turn out to he homosexu*al and wouldn't love him any less. However, what made her worried was because she knew what society's perception would be like and that Kyle's life wouldn't exactly be roses because of it.

As a mother, she wanted his life to be smooth and free from worries. Life was hard enough as it is, and the burden that Kyle had over his shoulders as the Smith Heir was even more. She firmly believed that such a burden would be greatly alleviated when he has someone beside him that completed him.

Not family. That's different.

However, if that someone was one that Kyle never found - or one that he would have to constantly fight society (and not to mention, all those of the Smith blood) ... wouldn't his burden only increase? What mother would want that sort of struggle for her own child?

She would be supportive but she would also be sad.

Sad at the sort of slurs he will face, sad at the sort of prejudice and unjust hate he would have to endure, sad at having to see the pain in his eyes as he goes through it just because he wanted to be with his loved one.

That was not the sort of life she would want for her son.

Kyle truly did understand what Delilah meant, and where her heart was. Which was why he always accepted it whenever she just ranted in extreme worry about it.

As for him, he still wasn't 100% sure yet which way he swung at the moment.

His soul may have been female before but he grew up as a male. The physical changes he was experiencing since hitting puberty made him even more aware of his identity as a male. He was neither attracted to male or female and could deeply appreciate both genders.

It was way obvious by now that he could get aroused by a female ... if he let his feelings and emotions take over. His body reacted very well to it, Kyle thought. Whether it would be the same for a male remains to be seen.

What was equally obvious was that ... other than the normal physical reaction, he felt absolutely no attraction towards either male or female. He truly didn't know if he would fall in love with male or female ... if he did at all.

Figuring this out wasn't possible right now.

Only time would tell.

Worst case scenario, he'd just marry whoever his parents picked for him. If he never found 'The One', and he had no problems 'getting it on', then it just meant ... love wasn't meant to be for him. He had been lucky enough to have fallen in love before in his past life, so he felt it was perhaps an equal exchange to be able to re-live his life (albeit, in a different form) to help his children.

What was definitely clear, was that he wasn't a girl in a guy's body. His soul may have been female before, but he had never felt uncomfortable being a guy. Other than the initial surprise of finding that dangly-bit inbetween his legs while he was a fetus, he had never felt that he was born the wrong gender.

So that wasn't an issue.

It was the 'falling in love' part.

Kyle was still a romantic deep down but he just didn't think there was one for him right now. He didn't truly believe in the concept that there was that one person who had been destined to be your other half from the day you were born.

His past life dispelled that romantic notion.

Not to say that he didn't believe in love. He would help his brothers - and Kay - find the person they would want to be with, but that was something that wasn't quite in the cards for him.

Not right now, anyway.

Kyle finally swallowed the last food in his mouth, and smiling sweetly back at his mother who had been waiting extremely patiently while he did so, he asked, ”Yes, Mother?”

Delilah delicately wiped the edge of her lips, put her napkin on her lap then asked, ”So, when will I be meeting your girlfriend?”

”When I get one,” Kyle said.

”When will that be?” she demanded.

”When I find one,” Kyle replied.

”Are you really looking properly?” Delilah asked, staring at him.

”As properly as my two eyes can see,” Kyle responded then added, ”Come on, Mum. It's hard to find any girl that is better than you. Stop being so awesome then, and perhaps I can stop comparing.”

Though Delilah knew Kyle was just saying it to avoid the topic, she couldn't help but feel extremely pleased with his obvious compliments.

”Laying it on thick, aren't you son?” Patrick commented.

Kyle gave him a shocked look, saying, ”What? Father! Please. Are you saying my mother, who is the love of your life, isn't awesome? That any girl can compare? That I can easily find another girl who is as awesome as Mum?”

Delilah turned to him, smiling sweetly, ”Hmmm ... is it?”

Patrick almost choked on the coffee that he was about to drink.