Chapter 87 Stirrings of the Hear (1/2)

”How did I know I was in love?” Sarah repeated, ”I didn't. Not at first. Things just developed gradually. In retrospect, it was obvious but it wasn't when it was happening.”

”Things like what?”

”How I enjoyed his company. How I looked forward to mealtimes because he was there. How I liked his smile. Just ... just everything. I would talk and think about him constantly but felt that was normal. I mean, he's Kay's twin, right? Of course we would be talking about Kyle all the time,” Sarah said weakly.

Sarah turned to Beatrice and asked, ”Do you remember that time when they were away for a week?”

Beatrice nodded.

”That's when it hit me and I couldn't lie to myself anymore. I found myself missing both of them so much that it made me wonder and think. It was natural that I missed Kay, but Kyle? Why did I miss Kyle? When I went for meals alone, I found myself being sad not just because Kay wasn't there but also Kyle. In the end ... without realising it, I was thinking of Kyle more often than Kay!”

”The realisation was as if someone had slapped me in the face,” Sarah said.

”But it's horrible,” Sarah wailed, ”I don't want this. I don't want to know. Now I'm in a one-sided love. Seeing the guy you love being nice to you but not having any feelings for you. Yet, you can't blame him because that's just how he is. Kind, thoughtful and wonderful like his sister.”

”There was this one time that I got my period early,” Sarah said, her eyes misting over as she reminisced, ”It was so embarrassing because I didn't know. I mean, I felt something weird but didn't think it was that. I was walking around school with a stain at the back of my skirt when I suddenly felt something at my waist. I was really shocked and stopped, to find Kyle had tied his jacket around my waist. He then whispered to me that I leaked. I could have died at that moment! But he was just so sweet about it and never brought up the matter at all, even saying that the jacket is for me - it's as if he knew I would be too shy to return it, knowing what it had covered.”

”It's those little things he does that's just ... arrrgh. Sometimes I feel like distancing myself from them but it hurts too much to be apart.”

”But ... but ... how sure are you that he doesn't feel the same way? I've never really seen him so caring to other girls,” Beatrice said. Not to mention that Kay did reveal that Kyle didn't touch girls yet, he had obviously done so with Sarah? Didn't that mean she was special?

Beatrice thought better than to say it to Sarah, of course.

”Isn't it better to get it out of the way rather than having you suffer in silence? Just confess and move on,” Beatrice insisted, thinking that Kyle most likely did have some feelings for Sarah. If Sarah did confess, wouldn't it clear the air?

Sarah hissed, ”I can't! It's ... too risky!”

”Risky? In what way?”

”Look, right now, I enjoy being Kay's best friend and am closer to Kyle than most girls. If I confess and he feels the same, then great! But if he doesn't? What happens then? Do I leave? Do I break the friendship with Kay? I can't stay with them anymore now, can I?”

”Why not?”

Sarah looked at Beatrice in wonder. Did she really not know or was she simply making it difficult for her? Looking at Beatrice's pure eyes, Sarah decided that Beatrice really was asking sincerely.

”What would you say if I told you that Sam has feelings for you and wants to confess?”

Beatrice's eyes bulged wide open.

”Wh-A-aaT?!” Beatrice nearly shrieked, completely shocked at Sarah's question, ”That's not possible!”

”Well? What if he did? Would you accept his confession?”

”Of course not! He's just a classmate,” Beatrice replied firmly.

”Then how will you treat him after that? Knowing that he is in love with you. Can you treat him the same? Would you be able to talk to him normally? Would you be careful about how you treat him then?”

Beatrice stopped to think and felt that Sarah had a point.