Chapter 237 - You’re not the only one who is insecure, Innaya! (1/2)

|Innaya|

The cold water acted as a harsh reminder, pulling me back to reality. Due to my hastiness, the wound on my finger tingled with pain. I had made the small wound almost turn into a hole because of drilling my nail in it. All the hurt, the pain of the past one month came rushing back to my head, making me slightly dizzy from the rush.

The pain caused by Eshan's accusation of choosing Karan over him rang in my ears. His eyes had already given away his inner thoughts. No matter what reasoning he gave later on, the fact remained the same. There was a crack in the trust he had in me.

How easily Eshan behaved like nothing was wrong? I again fell for his tricks. How foolish of me! One moment he showered his love, and then he blew me away as if I was some sort of dirt on his shoes. Here, he was again trapping me with the illusion of his intimacy.

How could I forget those cutting words of his? How could I forget his suspicion because of Karan? How could I forget about everything so easily?

”There… there.” Eshan came to my side, holding my slightly quivering hands under the running water. His large palms covered mine, if he were to close them, my palms would be engulfed whole by them.

Stumped, I followed those fingers to the sharp elbows to muscled forearms... His bare chest brushed against my shoulders as I was turning sideways.

Water Drops rolled down on my eyelids from my forehead causing me to blink.

”Sweetheart.” Eshan caressed my palms before holding them in his right hand. He used his left hand to turn off the tap and took a towel from the side. Patting it on my forehead, he then wiped the water from my face.

”Dad is waiting for us. We should not waste more time. If the bandage gets wet, we'll end up using more time. So, be good, and we can leave soon.”

His words sounded foreign to me, and so did his face. This was the man I loved wholeheartedly. Then why my heart trembled as if I did not know him at all? Why sudden unfamiliarity?

I pulled my hands from him, abruptly. At the same time, I slid down from the counter, forgetting about not putting pressure on my sprained ankle. Everything happened in a spur of the moment; I only had one thought in mind… to get away from Eshan.

Eshan's reflexes worked more quickly than I could have imagined. Snaking his hand around my bare waist, he held me in the mid-air.

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|Eshan|

There. That cloud of uncertainty shrouded Innaya's features. Subconsciously her mind kept bringing back the unhappy moments of self-doubt and the low times of our relationship.

I thought she had forgotten about them temporarily while my distraction worked. Intentionally I had chosen to shift her thoughts and mood in the other direction. The human mind only stops thinking in either extreme fear or extreme pleasure.

I had seen the fear in her eyes when she almost succ.u.mbed to the panic attack outside in the room. So for her not to go back to that point, and to divert her attention, I decided to use the second point- pleasure.

Taking the route of our intimacy I thought, I could- but appeared like it did not work.

”Careful.” Her soft flesh felt too good under my palms, but I had little time to relish the feeling. Snaking one arm around her shoulders and one around her lower back, I hoisted her up in my arms. Making sure that she did not put pressure on her leg. I sat her back on the counter amidst her struggle to get out of my hold.

Her wet palms burned my bare chest, igniting a fire of desire in the innermost part of my self-control. For the briefest moment her body had plastered to mine, and it caused the tiny jolts of passion to shoot through my whole body.