Chapter 224 - Have you ever been stung by a honeybee? (2/2)

Eshan sighed. ”It dies… painfully.”

I was taken aback at the knowledge. 'They die? Why? Are humans more poisonous than bees?' Well, the humans are actually more toxic, poisonous. One can find remedies, vaccines, medicines for other things, but not for the poison within humans which they hid deep within their heart and sometimes on their tongue.

Ayesha's mother and Ayesha. Both women had a more poisonous tongue than any venom. The toxicity they had in their heart was unbearable. The words they had used were more vulgar than used in slums. In fact, those people might not be using them. The mother and daughter pair was a vicious one.

”You know why?” Eshan asked. It broke my reverie. I did not want to think about those women. They did not deserve another thought from me.

Eshan held my gaze. ”They die of massive abdominal rupture. When a honeybee stings you, it cannot pull the barbed stinger back. It not only leaves behind stinger but part of its digestive tract and abdomen. Not only that but muscles and nerves as well… I'm no different than that bee. You know why?”

I bit my lip hard. I somewhere got the idea of what he was trying to say. The raw anguish swirling in his eyes brought a wave of discomfort to my heart, making me restless.

”Because for every word of mine that is hurting you. For every action of mine that is hurting you… a part of me dies. I know it's wrong. I should not be hurting you, but I can't help it.” Eshan stood up from the ground. He wobbled a bit, maybe because the floor was cold, and sitting on it for so long made his legs numb.

Taking a couple of steps back, he started pacing in the room. ”You did not trust me. You chose to confide in someone else while bearing everything alone. Why?” He moved his hands through his hair, messing them. He was frustrated.

”Don't you know why?” I retorted. He was still stuck to Karan's point. I did not confide in anyone. Not even Karan. Despite how many threats Karan gave me, holding Eshan as bait, wishing I would share my problem with him, I had not shared anything with him.

Eshan's agitation was hurting me. The whole situation was hurting me.

”No… I don't know. I tried considering it from every perspective. I really did. But, I don't know why you would choose outsiders instead of me.” He paused his marching. He abruptly spun on his feet before he towered over me. Even while towering over me by balancing his weight on the bed on both hands that were trapping me, he made sure to avoid my leg.

”Is that what you really feel, Eshan? Am I that kind of person in your eyes?” I asked him. His consideration was touching my heart, but his words had a totally opposite effect on me. They were tearing me from inside. Why did he doubt me?

”What kind of person am I? Fickle? Incompetent? Emotionally unstable? What?” He retorted with his question.

”Don't you return my questions with a question? Don't divert the topic. While we are at it, let's discuss.” I did not back out. ”Tell me what you think of me. Let it out for once and all.”

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