Chapter 197 - How Things Fell Apart (Flashback 1) (1/2)

|Innaya|

My shoulders were shaken, and I realized though I had stopped thinking, my gaze was fixed on the cut. I raised my head when I heard Eshan's frantic calls. ”Are you listening to me? Innaya? Damn it! Innaya, look at me.”

”Oh! I'm fine. I'll just clean this,” I muttered before wriggling out of his grasp. The pain in my heart was getting unbearable. I could hardly handle myself. My legs were shaking and I really wanted to sit somewhere before my sorry figure collapsed.

”I'll clean. I'll clean. You just calm down. Sit here, I'll be back right away.” Eshan's whole demeanor had changed. Gone was the anger, and only concern remained in his eyes as he repeatedly tried to hold my injured hand.

”No need, Eshan. You might not be done with what you want to say. Don't mind me, do continue. I accept it's my fault. It's my fault. I deserve this wound. Don't worry about it—”

My blabbering was cut off as I felt the warm lips covering mine, swallowing my words…

Eshan had grabbed my waist at some point, cradling back of my head with his other hand. His lips silenced me in a most intimate way. Feeling his lips on mine after so long, I could not help but cry.

I did not know why I started crying. I did not know why he kissed me so suddenly. I did not know what was going on anymore. I did not want to cry. How could I be so weak to start crying at every little small thing?

The hurt in my heart did not allow me to hold him like I always did. His lips glided smoothly over mine, they wanted permission to trespass the territory that had been not visited for a long period. Overwhelmed with my emotions, I pressed my lips tightly refusing to open up the path for him.

I could feel my face getting drenched with my tears. Why was he kissing me? Did he not just throw accusations on me?

I pushed him away because if I stayed longer, I was going to say things that could destroy everything. The suffering of the last month would be in vain then. Eshan seemed to have different plans as he tightened his hold and continued keeping his lips fused to mine, which made me cry harder.

My whole energy was gone. Just a couple of hours I had cried bitterly, then how could I have so many tears to shed still? The turmoil in my heart grew. One part of me wanted to just pour out everything to him, telling him what people close to him did to me.

Why it had to be people he loved, cared, were the ones always hurting me. I had done nothing to them to deserve such kind of treatment. Then, why?

Eshan's kiss felt suffocating to me. The memories of that incident of how things went wrong between us were resurfacing in my mind. I had wanted to wipe that incident out of my mind, but things were not easy.

If only I had Eshan by my side that day, but then again he would have been the person to get hurt the most because of it.

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(Flashback: The six month wedding anniversary night.)

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I bit my lip after realizing my folly. How could I be so perverted? I actually misunderstood his words, and blurted out words I could regrettably never take back.

I wanted to hide back under the covers again, but Eshan had already leaned down and stole my breath away with his slow and savory kiss. I could hardly remember anything.

”Tesoro, you're so naïve,” Eshan chuckled as he pulled away after what felt like an eternity. My eyes moved to his lips as they loomed dangerously over mine.

”Can you stop teasing me?”