Chapter 193 - Ill leave if Im not welcomed here (1/2)

|Innaya|

”Don't let Mom find anything suspicious.”

I was pulled back to the present with Eshan's warning. I hastily nodded and retreated to the bathroom. The news was too sudden, and I did not know how to react. Standing in my dazed state before his eyes, was not at all a good option.

Inside the bathroom, I took some time to calm myself down. I did not have much impression of Eshan's mother. At the time of our marriage, everything had happened too quickly. I did not get any chance to know his family members.

I did not know how the upcoming days were going to turn out. If I had Eshan supporting me, I would not be so worried. Though Eshan would not abandon me, things were not the same anymore as they were in the past. Time and again, I was hurting him because of my insecurities, past, and matters which I could not share with him.

It was a wonder that he had not gotten frustrated with me and left me at my maternal place. I could see his patience was wearing off.

Removing my clothes, I walked to the shower cubicle. I turned on the shower as I stood under the water. My thoughts ran in all the direction that I started feeling a little hazy with my mind being so clouded. I closed my eyes tightly and focussed on the water. I had initially not realized, but the water was cold. I had forgotten about adjusting the temperature.

My teeth started chattering as the water was colder than normal. Abruptly I stepped out of the reach of the shower. For a while, I watched the water droplets falling freely as if they were feeling liberated. As if they knew it was the only moment they could have their existence before getting mixed again.

How could I envy them? They were fighting for even a moment of freedom, while I failed to gather my fighting spirit against the evil forces trying to drive the wedge between Eshan and me.

Shaking my head full of wet hair with water dripping from my locks that stuck to my body, I once again stepped under the shower. This time knowing well that I would surely fall sick if I continued the madness. I did not know what came over me but listening to Eshan and Ayesha's conversation, their playful and lively interaction in the living room something was breaking within me.

I could not describe the feeling. It was sickening. As if thousands of worm were crawling on my body, making me feel disgusting.

***

”Don't get too involved with him. You are not worthy of him.”

”Sooner or later, you'll have to leave him. You don't deserve him.”

”Start packing your bags and leave him.”

***

”Achoo!”

”Achoo! Achoo!”

A couple of times I sneezed continuously. That had me turn off the shower, and those voices also died down. I shivered when the coldness was being more apparent. I sneezed more. Wiping myself dry with the help of a towel, quickly putting on the clothes, wrapping my wet hair in the towel, I arrived before the mirror.

I looked slightly better than before. With no more dried tears and a pale face, I did not look that lost. My nose had turned red. I knew I would soon catch a cold if I stayed like that.

I never liked to blow dry my hair. Hence, I left the bathroom intending to sit in the balcony for a while. I would dry my hair in natural sunlight.

The bandage on my finger was to be applied again. Being soaked in the water, the skin around it had sagged. I needed to clean it as well with disinfectant.

Eshan was arranging his clothes in the wardrobe. I wondered what was taking him so long. There weren't many clothes. He had not shifted his entire wardrobe.