Chapter 190 - Hug me, please (2) (1/2)

| Eshan |

”Hug me, please.”

Something sharply twisted in my heart at her desperate plea. And that was when I realized how close I was to her. I wasn't supposed to be that close to her as per her own once uttered words but I had no heart of leaving her at that moment when she looked on the verge of breaking down.

How could I do that to her? How could I do that to my Innaya?

She was still my Innaya. Irrespective of what had happened, what had gone wrong, she was still... still my Innaya.

I loosened my hold around her back, held her hands and put them around my neck while I brought her close enough where I could feel her heartbeat and I knew, she could hear mine.

Her body was still trembling and I could not decipher what had triggered it this time. A part of me constantly went towards Ayesha but I just saw no reason how she would trigger Innaya.

Ayesha was a sweet and simple girl. Too sweet to hurt Innaya in any way.

”For how long? For how long are you going to keep it away from me, Innaya?” I gently stroked her hair, as I pushed her more which I had stopped doing since the time she got a panic attack because of that last.

I hadn't probed her to get any information from that episode of hers.

That didn't mean it didn't affect me. It was not just affecting me but our relationship. We were no longer what we used to be. Innaya was no longer was she used to be, so was not I.

I could not help but get deeply saddened.

”Don't talk about it, please. Just hold me. Just hold me closer to you, Eshan.”

Despite all the differences we had, my lips broke into a smile and I hid her in my arms.

After so long, she was this close to me. After so damn long.

I had missed her.

I had missed comforting her.

I had missed holding her.

I had missed stroking her hair.

I had missed smelling her hair.

I had missed everything about us.

It felt so good to have it all back even if it was temporary.

It felt so good to catch up with the hugs we missed.

Gosh. I absolutely loved this woman and I knew she loved me more than she had ever loved anyone.

And yet we weren't there where we should be.

Having her still shaking, I decided to let it be like I have been for the past one month. I did not know when she was going to put faith in me and tell me the truth.

The truth that she had been hiding for so long.

The truth why she had accepted to be at fault when she had done nothing.

The truth why she had asked me not to touch her.

The truth why she had grown distant from me.

It was killing me day by day.