Chapter 181 - If we are together, well survive. (2/2)
”Are you angry now?” I heard him ask again.
This time, I could not keep my eyes closed. No matter what were my thoughts, I would not wish to hurt him ever. I detected a faint hurt in his voice. I did not want to hurt his feelings. He was not at fault at what happened inside the bedroom. The ever so gentleman he was, he did not make things awkward for me. Them what reason I had to make him feel guilty?
I opened my eyes slowly. The first thing I noticed was Eshan's dark eyes waiting impatiently for me to acknowledge him. There was a hint of concern in them.
”Are you angry at this husband?” Eshan brought his left hand to cup left side of my face. Almost instantly my body leaned instinctively in his warmth. No matter how much front I wanted to hold on, one look, one caress, one word from him was all it took for my defenses to crumble.
Just how much intertwined we were with each other? As if our souls knew what other one felt... This kind of telepathic connection that extended to our inner souls was too far fetched for my simple mind to believe. However, I could not help but believe it.
”No,” I whispered.
”You can blame me, but I am not at fault. What happened was already out of my hands. At most, I could only leave to prevent any mishaps from happening.”
Once again the shyness was surfacing with full force as he brought the topic of our bedroom. Why could he not ignore it as of never happened?
”I know you're thinking why I am bringing it up again.” Eshan's fingers rubbed the corner of my eye. His fingers then moved to my eyebrow. I did not understand was it deliberate or he was absent-minded, but his fingers exerted a little pressure.
The pressure felt a little better, and I could not help but think to have my head massaged. How could I think about something like this out of the blue? Why did my thoughts have to wander elsewhere instead of focusing on the matter in hand?
”Tesoro, I'll say this again. We need to be talkative so that our relationship only progress instead of being riddled with misunderstandings. I would not be able to bear any more distance. I had once gone through the agony which was enough to kill me multiple times. I can't go through the same pain again. I know you had it worse. I beg of you to try, and not let any negativity drag you down.” Eshan's eyes held the pain of our separation. It caused my heart to tremble, recalling all the nights and days spent without him.
”I understand what your past did to you. I know you have been trying your best to not let it affect you. Try a bit harder for us. You've me to seek strength from. You are not alone. This husband of yours doesn't fear any hardship. If we are together, we'll survive. This is just a matter of physical intimacy. What are you being shy about?” Eshan asked.
Something warm spread in my heart. Was this the feeling of security they spoke of? Was this the strength your lover gave to you? If yes, then I was fortunate to meet my match.