Chapter 179 - Prevention was always better than the cure. (1/2)

|Eshan|

Ah! Life was unfair. It would dangle a radish before your eyes, but you would not be able to eat it. You would get enticed by it, but other than sighing over your destiny, you wouldn't be able to do anything.

Standing under the cold water, I tried suppressing my innate passion. The sort of temptation I had been through just now, was hardest to deal with. Who would have thought that the day would progress like this?

I wanted to return home to forget about the bad taste the afternoon in the office had left me with. I had wanted to hold her, to relieve my stress. I ended up with more stress after holding her.

'Argh!'

I almost punched the wall. At the last moment, I held back. My punch would not have any effect on the wall, but my knuckles would receive the backslash. If Innaya noticed it, which was bound to happen, then I would not have any explanation.

Sigh! I could not even act unruly. I had to be considerate of her emotions. Then again, there was different beauty in it. Getting accustomed to your partner wasn't what marriage meant?

In a way, it was a test of my self-control, which I think I barely passed. However, it allowed me to know her perspectives. I never considered the possibility of her having gaps in her memories. I thought she remembered it well, which caused her to be more affected.

Talking to her gave me vivid insight into her past. I could link her hesitant behavior when it came to the matter of intimacy to her past.

The bits and pieces of how much she could remember were weighing her down with their burden. I needed to find a way to help her overcome it.

I raised my head, with eyes closed to face the showerhead. Droplets of cold water mercilessly whipped my face, leaving the stinging sensation behind.

***

'Oh, Innaya! My dear wife, you think, you are too smart. Unfortunately, you aren't.' I chuckled, watching her trying to be on the guard.

She thought she could hideaway in the garden, but she forgot a very important thing. The floor to ceiling glass wall did not hide much. The view was exceptionally beautiful and clear from the second floor.

Sitting in the chair, I silently admired her while enjoying the coffee she had considerately left in the room. I knew she would realize the reason behind my sudden abrupt behavior. One glance at her body, and she must have found the answer.

She did ultimately. It was not rocket science, I only felt a little regretful for missing the chance of witnessing that shy look on her face. She must have blushed endlessly. What a picture it must have been to look at!

Though I regret missing it, I had to leave. There was no other option. If I had stayed for a moment longer, we would have ended up doing things both of us would not have liked. I did not want our first time to be the result of hormonal impulse. I would rather suffer some agony waiting for the right time when both of us were ready than making it a result of l.u.s.t. I was never the one to give in to impulses.

The sight of her n.a.k.e.d flesh still sent shivers down my spine. Even spending almost an hour in a cold shower was not enough to cool down the fire she had ignited.

For the first time, I felt what it meant to be s.e.x.u.a.lly frustrated. This was also good. At least my body was having a normal reaction. It was desiring my woman.