Chapter 156 - Something Was Not Right (1/2)

|Eshan|

My heart protested in anger for making my woman feel worried for me. She was holding me silently, wanting to comfort me with the solid warmth of her frail body. I could see her struggle once I mentioned the reason behind my nightmares. That was the dark phase of our lives, the one I wished to wipe out completely from our memories.

Alas! I could only wish for it, for I knew it was not possible to do so. That phase was going to be a constant reminder of what misunderstandings did to the relationsh.i.p.s.

I could not believe how I had sought refuge in her arms last night. I could not believe, how I was about to step over my boundaries in the car. The reactions my body possessed toward her mentally, emotionally, and physically were too strong for her to handle. I knew it. Thus, I had to refrain myself from showing away from the things that could scare her for her life. I didn't want to risk our budding relationship with my hastiness.

I stroked her back, thinking about her soft melodious voice that had sung a lullaby for me, whose wordings I did not register.

I had woken up soon after I had my first nightmare. I always did. As if there was a certain switch to my body, it would automatically react.

However, I had taken the liberty of being in her arms, letting her soft caresses soothe my troubled mind and her whisper-like voice caress my heart. She would have shied if she knew I was awake. So, I wanted to calm down before losing the privilege of being comforted like a child.

I did not realize how long she held me as I lay with my head tucked under her chin. Listening to her heartbeat, my conscience had kept drifting in and out of haziness. When I woke up in the morning, I had never felt so refreshed after a night filled with nightmares. Every credit went to my sweet, adorable wife who had looked after me throughout the night. Exhaustion was written across her beautiful face.

I had waited for a while before stealthily moving out of the bed without disturbing her. I had wanted to hold her for more time, but my mind reminded me that she had not good rest because of me. I had to resist my urge to drop a kiss on her forehead. Not in the slightest, I wanted to be the reason behind waking her up.

Innaya raised her beautiful brown orbs filled with concern and questions, pulling my attention as she did so. ”You didn't have-”

”No. This was the first time I had them after our reconciliation.” I completed it for her. She had tried to compose her voice, but I took notice of how low and depress it sounded.

Letting myself have the opportunity of holding her for a couple of moments, to assure my troubled senses, I slowly pushed her out of my arms. If it was in my hands, I wouldn't mind holding her forever in my arms. However, she needed to eat.

”Okay, enough of talking. Let's eat. Our breakfast is turning cold,” I said, noticing her fallen face. We both had our demons, and we had to fight our own battles to be able to stand strongly beside each other.

”I'll reheat it. Take a seat.” Tiptoeing, my beautiful wife placed a quick kiss on my cheek before she turned and disappeared in the kitchen, leaving me to bask in the affection she was showering upon me.

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”I want details not your excuses.” I slammed the file on the table. After breakfast, I had left for the office. Some issues needed my attention, and I couldn't delay it.