Chapter 136 - She Wasnt Breathing (2/2)

”Sweetheart, are you okay? Breathe, sweetheart. Innaya?” She did not respond to me. Her unresponsiveness was starting to make me anxious.

”What should I do? What should I do?” I thought out aloud. My thoughts ran in every direction searching for ways to get Innaya out of her attack.

”Water. Yes! Shower.” I somewhere had read that showers helped in coping with a panic attack.

I lifted her in my arms and rushed to the bathroom. I was going to try every way I knew. One of them would work. It had to work.

Once inside the washroom, I placed Innaya on her feet, supporting her limp body with my own. Turning on the faucet, I stood with Innaya under the showerhead.

Getting drenched under the warm water, I waited for Innaya to return to the normal...

She still seemed to be trapped in some haunting memory. Was it related to her scar? Then why did she not have such an extreme reaction yesterday? She was emotional last night but she did not go in shock. I could not understand anything anymore.

I caressed her cheek as I cupped her face in my left hand. With my right hand, I held her fragile body close to my chest. The water falling in both of us had long ago made our clothes stick to our bodies. Her long hair stuck to her face and on her back along with her clothes.

Yet, it did not seem to be working. I removed those wet locks away from her face. Her statue-like condition was worrying me too much. Had I rushed her into something? Should I not have been so direct with my actions? Thinking about those questions was of no use. Time wasn't going to reverse. Things weren't going to change.

I could only work on getting her to respond.

I placed my forehead against Innaya's as I helplessly hugged her. ”Sorry. I'm sorry, sweetheart. Please, talk to me. Innaya? Darling? Please, tell me what it is? Tell me what's bothering you so much?” I earnestly called out to her.

My voice cracked, her unresponsiveness was truly terrifying. The water falling on me was obstructing my view.

Suddenly Innaya gasped. Being so close to her, I could feel her heavy breaths. Her eyes were regaining their focus. Blinking her frightened eyes, her wet eyelashes fluttered. My heart fluttered too for she was finally showing response.

I did not call out her name, neither did I say anything. I did not want to startle her. She had to get out of her that trap her memory had laid.

Her almond-shaped brown eyes stared at me. I could see, she was still processing what went wrong. She was still in the middle of regaining control of her senses back.

My hand went behind her head, cradling it securely as my left hand went lower on her back. Pulling her closer, despite deciding to give her time, I could not help but act otherwise.

She was too precious for me. Watching her struggle had made me die down countless times. I could not bear to watch her in that state.

This was the worst panic attack she had before my eyes. In the past wherever she suffered panic attacks, she would respond to me. My voice would reach out to her, even in those moments of despair. She would fight her way back out of those terrible moments. However, this time, it looked way too different. The intensity of her attack was too much too bear for her. I could also feel the difference.

How was I meant to help her, when I could not even hold myself together after witnessing her in that state?

”Eshan.”

Finally. Finally, I could breathe freely. She called out my name and that was when I broke down. I could not let her see me like that. I immediately buried my head in her shoulder, breathing deeply to control my tears.

Those hot tears gathering in my eyes were of relief.

I was relieved. She had broken out of that nightmare. My Innaya was not that weak. She had finally managed to take control back and shove away that nightmare away.

I felt proud of her. At the same time, I felt guilty for putting her in that condition. Somewhere, I had been the reason for putting her through this.

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