Chapter 7 (1/2)
”I'm too dependent on you.” Lin Anlan said honestly, ”in this way, I may never recover my memory. I should go back to the place I am familiar with and touch the things I am familiar with. Only in this way can I recover my memory.”
Cheng Yu feels that his fear is getting stronger and stronger.
”But we agreed to live together before?”
”It was an accident.” Lin Anlan advised him, ”at that time I didn't know I would lose my memory.”
”Don't you want me to remember?” Lin Anlan asked him.
Cheng Yu doesn't want to. How can he hope that he can recover his memory? He has just come to him. He has just lived with him a life he never dreamed of. How can he hope that he can recover his memory.
He walked around the table to Lin Anlan, held his shoulder and asked him softly, ”baby, is it related to what happened just now? Are you upset and angry? ”
Lin Anlan shakes his head. He is not angry. Although he is lost, he can understand.
He just wants to recover his memory quickly, so that Cheng Yu can do anything with him without fear.
Instead of facing a lover with incomplete memory, yearning for the day when his memory is complete.
”I just want to recover my memory as soon as possible, so that you don't have to worry about whether I will be unhappy when I recover my memory in the future, and we can do whatever we want.”
”We can do it now.” Cheng Yu worried, he took Lin Anlan into his arms, the fear in his heart is like a black hole, constantly devouring him, ”you don't go, OK, I can give you what you want, I promise you, OK?”
”I'm not leaving.” Lin Anlan didn't understand why he suddenly resisted, ”you can go to my home, don't you want me to recover my memory as soon as possible?”
Cheng Yu held him tighter for a moment. He said, ”it doesn't matter whether you restore your memory or not. It's you that matter. As long as it's you, that's enough.”
”It's not your fault that you deliberately want to forget the past. What I like is you, not the memory of the past. As long as you are here, we can constantly create new memories, so you don't need to try so hard to remember yourself. ”
He looked at Lin Anlan and said eagerly, ”I'm not good. I shouldn't have said that just now. I shouldn't just think about your recovery of memory and ignore your current mood. It's my thoughtlessness and negligence. Will you forgive me?”
Lin Anlan was just wronged by him. He lost his memory and emotional connection with everyone, leaving only his trust in Cheng Yu.
He bathes in Cheng Yu's love, peaceful and at ease, but he will also be afraid, afraid that he is not the character he likes now, afraid that he will lose patience with himself one day, and afraid that his love will gradually fade with the time of his amnesia.
”Now I and my character before amnesia, like?” Lin Anlan asked him in a low voice.
Cheng Yu is stunned for a moment, but can't answer him.
Is it like that? He didn't know.
Lin Anlan has never loved him, so he has never been treated like this.
How can he know what Lin Anlan looks like in front of the people he likes?
But maybe it's like that. When he faced Jiang Xu, he was always gentle and patient, full of tolerance.
Cheng Yu nodded and shook his head, ”some like and some don't like.”
”But it doesn't matter.” Cheng Yu holds his hand and kisses the back of his hand. ”People are multi-faceted, so no matter what personality you are, you are, and I like you.”
”Have you ever thought that if I can't recover my memory all the time? Or is it very late to recover the memory? ”
”Then you are my wife, too.” Cheng Yu clenched his hand, ”whether you restore your memory or not, you are all Lin Anlan and the person I like.”
”What's more,” Cheng Yu said with a smile, ”you are very cute now. Don't you find that I've been peeping at you all the time recently?”
He approached Lin Anlan's ear and whispered, ”I want to kiss you.”
Lin Anlan's ears suddenly turned red, but she couldn't help laughing and lowered her head slightly.
”So don't move back, OK? How can we move back when we live together? Don't you want my husband? ”
He holds Lin Anlan, flattering call him, ”wife.”
Lin Anlan is so said by him, which is good meaning, can nod in his arms only.
Cheng Yu said with a smile, ”I knew my wife was the best, and my An'an was the best person in the world.”
Lin Anlan was sweet and embarrassed by what he said, so he had to push him back, ”have a meal.”
That night, after taking a bath, Lin Anlan went to Cheng Yu's bedroom.
He stood at the door and said boldly, ”I want to sleep with you.”
His heart beats very fast. He knows Cheng Yu knows what he means, but he's afraid that Cheng Yu doesn't understand.
He looks at Cheng Yu, simple but stubborn.
At this moment, Cheng Yu suddenly finds out that Lin Anlan is actually the one he is most familiar with. His character has changed, but it has not.
He still has his own ideas and opinions. No matter what you say or do, he will still stick to what he wants.
He thought he had convinced Lin Anlan, but he didn't, so Lin Anlan appeared in his room and asked for the answer again.
But now Cheng Yu doesn't dare to answer according to his conscience.
He couldn't bear the fear of losing Lin Anlan. The one in the afternoon was enough to make him afraid. He didn't dare and didn't want to bear the second time.
Cheng Yu gets out of bed, walks to Lin Anlan, bends down to hold him, and holds him all the way to his bed.
He looked at Lin Anlan cleverly sitting on the bed, and there was a light of joy in his eyes. He felt that human nature was really fragile, and conscience could not stand the test.
Even if he knows it's wrong, it can't. After Lin Anlan recovers his memory, he will hate him.